I'm very sorry for your loss


And i understand you. Some months ago i lost suddenly one of my 6 yy old Isa browns called Arancina.
i just went to open the coop and found her with some neurological symptoms struggling to breathe and with a super violet comb. I did what i could, i kept her warm but she died after few hours of a terrible agony.
I felt so bad, looking at her leaving this world, and even now,if i think to it, i feel again the panic i had.
So two month after that, i lost my young silkie rooster. My brother just went to let the girls out and found him dead.
we think he had some genetical disease cause he was always a very very strange behaviour (never crowed, never mated hens, and other like this) even if he was apparently healthy. It was a terrible repetition.
But, i think to the long reproductive issue that my chicken Panta had before to die, four weeks of pain, two of paralysis... her slowly fading away despite all my efforts and cares. And i think that it's so more painful and sad then a sudden death. I'm trying to be grateful for every day spent with my chickens.
Ok, i know, this wasn't a very cheerful message, but death is a part of owning animals and it's liberating to talk about is...isn't it?
It's only a little part of owning animals: there is an huge part of joy, fun, affection, that we can't renounce to. And i really wish that you in the future will enjoy so much of this to pacify your bad memories.
Hope it helps, and a truly big hug











