How can I forgive myself for killing her.

[redbug]

I am so sorry.

 

[goldysgirl]

I am so sorry

Please forgive yourself...it was a tragic accident and you took such good care of her and gave her so much love. I have felt this way before, too. When we were kids an escaped pet pigeon came to our house and we fed him and loved him for several weeks. Then one day we were playing basketball and did not know he was near and he was accidentally hit by the ball. He started limping and then flew away and we never saw "Scuttles" again. I felt so sad and guilty. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[kelseygirl707]

I am doing better tonight. I only cried a little while cleaning her brooder, unlike when I turned her heat lamp off last night, I sobbed then. I moved the polish chicks to her brooder, I just wish they were friendly like she was, but because they have each other, they seem to hate me

. I'll keep trying to get them to like me, maybe someday they will. I was offered another Cuckoo Maran by a fellow BYCer, and as sweet as that is, it wasn't the breed I loved, it was her, and the story we had together. But I am moving on...

 

[Jeeper1540]

Im so sorry

she looked like a sweet chick

 

[Hangin Wit My Peeps]

I feel so bad for you

That must have been awful. SO sorry!

 

[Chickaholic]

I am so sorry too!! You can not keep blaming yourself, this was an accident. My prayers are with you!!

 

[RainbowBirds_of_a_Feather]

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Those little fluffy-heads will!!! A couple of bugs will sway them.

But socializing with them will definitely give you the upper hand. I know in time they will become habituated to you. (YOU CAN DO IT!!!)

Moving on will take a day at a time......

 

[artistchan]

i don't own a chicken i own parrots, but i couldn't find anyone with same story on web. T_T
yesterday my beloved cockatiel, treasure, was walking about on the sofa without me knowing. the phone rang so i answered it half sitting on sofa. he must have wanted a cuddle and walked up to me because when i put the phone down and moved to sit down properly i accidentally crushed him

. all i heard was a shriek and he was completely limp. i must of broken his neck since he could only open and close his eyes. from accident to vet to put down because his heart beat was too weak. it all happened within a half hour. and this was on the day i needed to do GCSE exam. i had to do it straight after putting him down. being so upset i must of failed it.
i just can't forgive myself, he trusted me completely. we shared every meal with each other, bathed together, went for a relax in the garden together, watched tv together...
TT_TT i loved him more than anything in the world and i was the one who killed him.
i can't kill anything on purpose, i let fly's out the house rather than spray them.
and now his cage mate is lonely, it hurts even more that he does the flock call and he gets no reply.
so what if accidents happen, do they really have to happen over and over again. i had to grieve over 9 deaths last year, because of accidents. my heart hurts so much it feels like i'm having a heart attack.
how can i forgive myself?

how are you coping now anyway, how did you forgive yourself and get rid of the pain of loss?

 

[kelseygirl707]

I am soo sorry

. I am still mad at myself for being careless, but it's doesn't hurt as much anymore, I'm mostly just angry at myself now. But for a while I didn't want anything to do with my other chicks, and they seemed to hate me, so I rehomed them to a friend that had chicks their same age. After a while my Husband convinced me to try again, so I have some chicks and hubby hatched a gosling that absolutely adores us both, and I am spending time with them all every day. But I do have to say I am sooo much more cautious now. And I do think of her everyday, I even framed some picks of her.

It's a terrible accident, but and accident all the same, and I think we have to give ourselves a break.

 

[MaureenL128]

I am so sorry that this happened. I can't even imagine going through that! Let then other babies be your therapy to heal your heart.