I just found two more dead, I'm losing it. Update post #32.

[Chickengal505]

Things like this are SCARY I've had a motercycle/ truck broad side crash IN MY DIVEWAY the motorcyclist died. Scared the living daylights out of me. Once you get a little better try talking to a therapist. It realy helps and they'll be able to help you cope with so much death. We are all here for you if you need us. I ate asian food today and for some strange reson I got a fortune cookie it said "things in life afre not to be feared but understood" Don't know how it relates to the situation I just thought of it. Try to relax as much as possable and eat as much ice-cream as you can without making yourself sick. If I where you I'd stay home from work.

 

[elizabethbinary]

They are being lovely. I've started some Jewish mourning rituals and they are already making my soul feel lighter.

I worked for a mortuary when I was a kid; you'd think this wouldn't bother me. Timing, I guess.

Thank you for the kind words.

 

[Chickengal505]

No matter who you are (unless your some souless pshopath) this much destress and death would bother you. I'm sitting here and I didn't even witness any of this and i'm getting quesy and starting to cry. like I've siad a zillon times we are all here for you and please rest and do what ever makes you feel better.
-Holly

 

[Sonoran Silkies]

Liz, I was afraid I was not going to phrase it well, but I have seen birds heal well and live for years when there was an incredible amount of damage. I was trying to show you that it isn't always as bleak as it may appear.

It sounds to me like you have a very sensitive soul, which is wonderful for those around you, but can be very painful for you. Sending many ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))) your way. Let your roommates pamper you, and try to relax. When your husband gets home, tell him to hold you tight.

 

[annaraven]

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You sound calmer. The mourning rituals seem to be helping. That's what those sort of things are designed for - I'm glad that you thought to do it. Please use your support network - your DH, your roommates, us, family, whoever you need to. And don't let anyone tell you to just "get over it" or anything silly like that. Take what time you need, and whatever resources you need, to recover. I agree with the poster who suggested you talk with your therapist when you get a chance. Now is not the time to buck up and go it alone.

 

[mulewagon]

Hon, you've been through so much the last few weeks - all of you have been through so much... It's no wonder losing the birds hit you so hard, and now seeing a worse disaster...Just fall apart and cry as long as you want, you need it! If I were nearby I would make you a nice cup of tea or something, but can only send you {{{{hugs}}}

 

[elizabethbinary]

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Thank you, I appreciate it.

On the bright side, if I'm in shiva, I don't really have to do anything for seven days. I don't think I'll do seven though. Three seems sufficient.

Eveeryone is being lovely. I think when I got home they could see/hear I was just.. pieces.

You are ALL being so lovely. I'm so sorry if I acted funny or anything! Thank you all for the lovely advice, encouragement and charm.

 

[sonew123]

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Oh Elizabeth!!! How terrible to witness! Im so sorry for your whole terrible sad filled day

 

[elizabethbinary]

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Tea would be so lovely. You're right - the last few weeks have been disastrous. I don't think I properly mourned the dead in the floods either. It's really been a barrage, hasn't it? I didn't even notice until you mentioned it. No wonder I was in shock!!

Peppemint tea. I want peppermint tea.

 

[annaraven]

Have one of your roommates make you some peppermint tea. Put some chamomile or catnip or lemon balm in it too.