I think I'm crazy

[newchknmama]

Some days I just think I have bit off way more than I can chew. I really dont like to sound like a whiner I just cant deal somedays. I have 5 kids, ages 2,5,6,9,10. They are fairly good kids. My husband and ihave been married almost 10 years. About 2 years ago I decided to go back to school, so have been going half-time each semester. We have moved 4 times in 5 years, the last two times because the owners were foreclosing and we were renting. We just bought this house we were renting, and I am happy to own a home again, but it is no where near my dream home. In fact, there is little i like aobut it besides the great mortgage pmt. I work about 30 hours a week on top of the kids and school. I got my chicks that are 3.5 weeks old and am loving them!! However, I have no time for anything.. no hobbies at all. I want to garden, hike, Ill miss all my sons t-ball games. I can't find time to go to the gym, I stay up til insane hours doing HW. Im perpetually tired and it shows. I thought about quitting school. Im so close to having my Associates that it seems stupid to quit now but my sanity is at stake. My house needs cleaning, homework done, yard work and house things done. My kids help out and my husband as well but it still seems like I have so many responisbilities. Not to mention I hate my job but quitting would require a strict budget and very little for extra stuff, like saving for furniture or vacations. I am just so overwhelmed. It is so very frustrating. I have Honework assignements due tomorrow night, I have company coming friday and a house that needs cleaned. I dont even know where to start. Thanks BYC for letting me vent.. I love this forum. You all make me feel a little less crazy.

 

[SourRoses]

Everyone is insane, by varying degrees.

For everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven.

This too, shall pass.

That's all I can come up with at the moment, LOL.
But, it seems to me that once you get school done, you will be that much closer to having time for relaxation... a better job too, I would hazard.
That said, only you can be the judge of how close you are to falling off your rocker. Everyone has limits. If you need to, cut something out.

 

[bakerjw]

Don't stop going to school. It will pay off eventually.

I have so many things to do around my house as well. Mainly construction oriented projects. I have found the only way to get a handle on things is to make a list and prioritize it. We have a large dry erase board that we use for this.

 

[welsummerchicks]

That feeling of 'too much to do and not enough time for the things I love', I think that's the human condition.

Of course, you could adopt hunter-gatherer ways and move to the Kalihari......

 

[chicmom]

Wow! You've got alot going on! Maybe you need just the summer off from school.......Just a small break. Then you can enjoy life a little bit...........Do you work full time or part time? Maybe you can reduce your hours a little bit......

I do know how you feel. My oldest son has been married now for 4 years, and they have a baby (my first grandchild), and then my youngest son is 17. I also have two step-kids I helped raise, a boy and a girl. You've surely been busy raising kids yourself!

Sometimes you have to let things go a bit to enjoy your family.....The kids don't care if your house is dusty......Company might notice, but hey, just hang a sign that says "My house was clean yesterday....Sorry you missed it!"

Take care!

Sharon

 

[sheaviance1]

Smile-force yourself to. It will make you feel better.

I tell any company coming, if you are coming to see ME, come on over, If you are coming to see MY HOUSE, I will need a two week notice.

Life is good, just incredibly busy. Set your standard a little lower and you will immediately feel better. I don't mean that in a bad way. I mean, allow yourself the flexibility that you need to do what you need to do, like finishing school. Your house doesn't have to make the cover of a magazine. It needs to be clean, but there is nothing wrong with a house that is LIVED in. It sounds like you and your family are doing a lot of LIVING! People work for what they love. It sounds like you need to take something off of your "TEDIOUS DUTY" list and put something on your "FRIVOLOUS ENTERTAINMENT" list. You have to reap some reward from all the hard work you are putting in or it just becomes drudgery.

List what is important to you at the end of the day. If a picture perfect house doesn't keep you awake at night, then it shouldn't make your list. If neglecting your family does, then it should. Live for the end of your day, and you will live a happy life!

 

[whiteflare]

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[newchknmama]

Thanks for the encouragement. Sometimes I just wonder what Im even doing

When all I really want to do is live a little simpler, have a garden, take care of the kids and animals, be outside, cook more. Too many times I do't even feel like a part of the family. The last thing I want to do is Keep up with the Joneses.. I just wnat to nurture my family