I am sorry that you are going through this but please, don't blame yourself. Some things are out of our control. Other people make choices that affect us.
I would suggest that you speak to a counselor at school. Sometimes just talking it out can help. It is sad when the people who should love us don't, but it is not a measure of who we are.
It's not what happens to us that counts but how we react to it. Good things can come out of bad situations sometimes.
I just can't wait until everything is settled down. I'm scared of what's going to happen when he gets out. I know he will be mad. I believe I need a body guard.
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You need professional help from someone who knows the domestic violence laws in your state. Look up battered women's resources, that's a good start. Your Mom may be in denial, or she may be aware that the most dangerous time for your family is when your dad realizes he's losing control of her and you kids. Either way, you're smart to be thinking about how to protect yourself. Get help from professionals who can help you with a safety plan before he gets out. God bless and good luck.