You had an amazing opportunity to ease suffering before death and didn't shy away from the task at hand. No one could have possibly known the outcome going in to this monumental task you had placed before you. You could have taken the easy way out, let nature take it's course and never had the amazing experience of showing many of God's creatures what compassion really is, and by many, I mean those of us who have been following this thread. Kudos to you for stepping up! If the rest of the world wasn't afraid to help someone more unfortunate or unable to help themselves, we would be in a much better place. I rushed home everyday to read this thread and find out the latest news. I am certain that you have learned a lot during this ordeal, but probably most important, you learned that you can do it. Whether or not he made it through has never been up to you. It is my hope that you find peace with the job you done and know deep inside that you did exactly what needed to be done, when it needed to be done. Feeling guilty is part of loss, and it too shall pass. With a heart like yours, I hope and pray that this talent that you have of caring for others will not be wasted. I hope that you continue to step up and exercise it daily. Not everyone has the capability to love so truly, madly, deeply with nothing but a big question mark in their future. The people outside of this forum may have the "it's just a chicken" mentality, but know that here, it is not only understood, but applauded, as it should be everywhere.
