That was the opposite for me! I thought I was genderfluid for a few years, then all of a sudden my dysphoria was acting up horribly bad and I started to hate my name and didn't know what the heck was going on. Then before I knew it BOOM! Universe dropped the bombshell of "You're Trans!" on my head lol. That was a wild day... got hit in the face with a duck and everything...
And thats okay! It takes time to figure stuff out. I didn't realise I liked girls until I was 15, and then I thought I managed to "pray it away". I think it took me a long time to understand and accept myself, mainly because of how I was raised.
I feel this... so much. And I'm sorry you had to go through all that. Stories like this are why I'm constantly on my soapbox about visibility and education and getting people to understand that we exist and being different is completely normal. So that way the next generation doesn't have to go through the same crap we did.
Oh boy, I'm starting to question my gender now. Finally comfortable in your sexuality? How about a whole new bunch of internal conflict!
Really curious about the duck
I think of it like a shirt. How often is wearing that shirt comfortable from sun up to sun down?
Mhm. In a literal sense too, I feel really uncomfortable wearing feminine stuff sometimes. I think maybe past the point of normal discomfort. If I wear nail vanish, stuff like that, I feel like I'm... cosplaying it? Idk if that's the right word. It doesn't feel natural. I also really want to cut my hair off. Like, having long hair is really bothering me. Not on a normal level. It doesn't feel right. Feminine doesn't feel right.
So what had happened was everything had clicked into my head and I came out all at the same time during an argument with my mother because she kept screaming my dead name at me over and over and over again and I didn't know why but I was extremely uncomfortable hearing it and then it just clicked and I snapped out that I was a trans man and my name was Jack.
It was a lovely day... on the Ides of March too 
Sounds like a stressful day!So what had happened was everything had clicked into my head and I came out all at the same time during an argument with my mother because she kept screaming my dead name at me over and over and over again and I didn't know why but I was extremely uncomfortable hearing it and then it just clicked and I snapped out that I was a trans man and my name was Jack.
Right after that fight though, which wasn't pretty, (We're okay now nobody panic. She's grown a lot and we've apologized to each other about how that whole mess went down). I still had to go out and let the birds out and get eggs. Well I had all of my small flock in one coop at that point and one of my female ducks was covered in mud. Anddddd she flew out of the coop like a silly goose and smacked me right in the face. So I was covered in mud and needed a shower.
All while we were trying to get ready to go to my optometrist's appointment!
