Lost My FIL Unexpectly

Yesterday, I REALLY tried to go on like nothing was bothering me. I came to the computer when the emotions were too out of control around the house. My husband did the same. We played on our little websites... read some news updates... but ignored emails and the phone quite a bit.

My husband's father died yesterday morning very suddenly and unexpectly due to a still unknown cause. It was quick and instant though... so no suffering... they couldn't revive him.

Its eating away at me, my husband is only 28 and his dad was not very old. He walked with a cane from a construction accident but other then that Healthy. Sadly, he worked with his dad until they both got laid off together in October. My husband found work and his father didn't. I have my fingers crossed it had nothing to do with that, or something from a past job or the injury from several years back.

I just know that my husband and his father were NOT close, and had butt heads on every ocassion known to man. Both agreed to try to get right with one another though, and had spent the last 10 years arguing, fighting... whatever you want to call it. There were times of pure hate between them, and I never felt very welcome.


The last 3 months had been very good between them, my FIL finally wanted involvement with our daughter who's now 2. He'd call, he'd drive twice as far as before when lived near him to even visit. The last time he was here he even told his son he was proud of him.

I've worried and thought on it enough, just hoping my husband really saw how far they came, and just how proud he really was of him. They we're perfect, but in a better place, a good place... and I couldn't handle my husband beating himself up over past guilts that are long over and done with.

I'm just very sad right now, and if anyone has a story to share of getting a family through this, feel free to share. Anything would make me feel better... I just want to feel stronger.


(On a side note, yesterday was also our 4 year wedding anniversary... but I dare not bring that up! He did though.... and was very sweet about it. However, we can celebrate us anytime!)