I want to do a set of meaties pretty bad but I sat for hours reading tips, watching home slaughter and even for a sec tried to watch commercial slaughter (thinking itd help me see why us doing it is better) still don't have the guts...
I even thought maybe-if I must-order meaties, at a certain point one has to put them down & prep due to health reasons for the meaties I read (bigger n older they start dying? Breaking legs? ) but then relized I would have to set up a MASH medical tent and save each one :/
I'm going to a friend's house who processes his roo's so I can see 1st hand. He's super gentle and quick. My grandma only started the killing cone after her crossed nails in a stump had a chicken (headless) take off to the neighbors, at a family BBQ. It was horrible for Them. The tough ol German lady literally laughed all afternoon :/ So grandpa made her use the cones. I *want* to be able to process our own meat, safely & quick for the bird . All of us grandkids were taught how to prep chickens, rabbits and snakes (ewww I know-I raised snakes as pets, but she made stew and meat sticks for the hunters outta it-lean meat high protein in small pieces) not how to kill the creatures tho. I think it would have been easier to learn to kill it than clean it that young lol then I wouldn't have to get lost on YouTube in chicken death videos

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I suppose its harder because we baby our girls...well any creature that just wants food n love we baby...but its probably not a bad thing having to take so much time to work up to killing something, that trusts us lol. I have no issue sending an arrow through a predator after my family, pets or livestock...
I would have to raise them away from my house buy them knowing that they or food & not pets (we don't name our food) and they would not be able to free range & when the time come some one else will have to do the deed I could pluck & cut & pack & eat. And still I go out every day & collect them beautiful EGGS crack them & eat them with out a second thought. Good thing eggs don't have eyes.