Oh don't be sad @Ribh - I have left all that behind me now! Someone else has to cope with all the madness. If I never have to be up on stage again it will be too soon. Though I admit that towards the end I had done it so often I was much better and sort of got the 'buzz' that some people get out of that stuff.I love that idea. Unfortunately I was not really in demand for my expertise (except in the broadest sense of experience and situational awareness) so I didn't get to give talks sharing what I knew, I had to respond to situations, explain things to people, take questions live on pretty much anything under the sun, calm people down etc..
All very stressful!
Weirdly, according to the audience, I am quite compelling in that format. Usually I am only good at things I enjoy!