I had a few special chickens I lost like that - truly just wanted to be with you. They would sit in my lap as I did work on the computer, their little head dangling over my arm. If I put them down to eat they would turn around and try to jump back in my lap...... their loss still hurts. They are pets. My husband was in the Navy, and has no problems showing off our foo-foo silkies to his old pals and new ones. If they don't get it, well their loss. Hugs to you and may your heart heal quickly. I believe when we lose a special chicken, it is only because there is another that needs us more............
