I know just how that is! I have decided, at least five times, never to raise chicks again. Then, I forget. They die so easily, and it breaks my heart each time! I am sorry that you feel this too. Hang in there!since I first got my chicks in late March. over nearly 3 months, I experienced 3 chicks was sick and saw died in my hand. I want to say: raising chicks for me is a bit depressed. every time chick died, I wanted to cry for several days. I am new to the raising chickens and put a lots time and effort. but some times I was so naive to kill the chicks.