My leukemia's back.

[Blooie]

Thanks.....I don't know what it is - if I could identify I could whip it into submission. And it's not all the time, it comes and goes. I know the Good Lord has this well in hand, but I wish I could be there!! I'm afraid sometimes that I have let myself get too close to the girls. Kendra and I spent a week in Denver all by ourselves right after she was discharged from the NICU, and Jenny was rushed by ambulance back to the hospital, where she spent 5 days in the ICU. I remember being in the Ronald McDonald House, holding that sleeping little baby, rocking and telling her that I wouldn't let anything happen to her - it felt like it was just me and Kendra against the world at times. I think that's where the super strong bond came from in the first place, and then taking care of her everyday makes her sometimes feel more like mine and less like theirs. I know that's wrong, but that's how I feel about her.

 

[3goodeggs]

Every child should be loved as much.

 

[N F C]

I don't think you're wrong to feel that way Blooie, it's understandable that you would with all the time and love between you two.

 

[donrae]

I've talked with a young lady who has a very physically challenged child. She is so tired and overwhelmed at times and has told me it's so hard to ask her Mom for help cause the Mom acts like she's doing this huge favor and attaches a lot of strings to her help. Your kids are so, so blessed with your help. I know you'd say you are the one getting the blessing, but really you all are. How you feel is not wrong at all. It's not like you're undermining her parents. You are an extra layer of love and support. Jan said it perfectly.

 

[Blooie]

Keep this up and you'll have me bawling in a minute!

 

[sourland]

Hey, Blooie, you're allowed ya know. Sometimes a few tears shed help to sort things out.

 

[Blooie]

Nah, don't have time for that kinda schmaltz! I is a in-portent person, you know, and busy busy busy! Kids made it to Denver safely and are tucked into their motel room for the night. So worrying about the trip down there is over with. I wish tomorrow was. <sigh>

 

[lazy gardener]

They'll be calling you from recovery before you know it. The worst part is the waiting, and the NPO before surgery.

 

[Blooie]

Jenny got the admissions information email on Kendra yesterday, but didn't know it until they got to the hotel and got her laptop set up. They have to have Kendra at Children's Hospital by 11 this morning and surgery is tentatively scheduled for 1 pm. They said it averages about 4 or 5 hours, but if they start the surgery and find they have to do the bladder augmentation that can bump it up to 7 or more. My sister Lori called early this morning. She has a business trip in Denver and will be flying in tomorrow. She'll be tied up most of tomorrow after she gets to Denver, but she said she changed her return flight by another day and plans to go up to the hospital and hook up with the kids and Kendra there after her final meetings on Friday, and then again on Saturday. That would be great....Lori is so special and Kenny and Jenny love her to pieces.

All we can do at this point is pray that everything goes well, there are no surprises, and that Kendra can tolerate it.

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Love and prayers.....