It was so nice to meet all of you that made it to the show.
Aubrey, Sunny is always talking about how cute you are. She was right. And for the life of me you look like someone I know and I can't figure out who it is. I'll probably wake straight up and go "DUH"! BTW those OE were so cute when I was picking up the blue Marans chicks. None of them had ever been in shavings and Denny and I were cracking up watching them dust bathe. LOL The one you have with the white spots on the face would come over and look and then walk away and turn and come back over and look. She'd stretch her neck to check everything out. Then when I moved mine out, I felt so bad. Your two just chirp and and ran around looking for them and making all kinds of noise. I felt like I had torn the family apart. I should have gotten hold of Sunny like I started to do and you could have taken her the 4 I have for her here. These look similar to your mossy chick. I love them. Thing is I got to carried away and I need to get rid of all of them now. I just can't seem to do it when they're grown.
Sheryl I'm so glad I finally got to meet you. You and Aubrey did a great job today.
I think we need a California/Nevada Chickenstock!
Haha! Even though Aubrey is adorable I mostly meant her personality when I say how cute she is. She cracks me up because she is so positive about almost everything!!! I wanna be like her when I grow up!
OK you all made me bawl with all the sweet, wonderful words and good wishes lately. I am better now. We have accepted the news now. Mom said she's actually known for a while that something was drastically wrong, she just couldn't get her doctor to agree so she was the only one that accepted the news calmly. The rest of us were shell-shocked.
Sorry, I better back up some. My Mom has been diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer. The biopsies are not back yet but the doctors all agree this is fact. The CAT scan showed the tumors quite clearly and when they did an endoscopy today they were able to see the tumors from the stomach. It has already metastasized. Well I say already cause we just found out but apparently this has been growing for at least 3 years.
We took her into Urgent Care Tuesday night cause she had been vomited, violently! Well it turns out everything she ate was staying in her stomach, the last month or so, because the tumors had completely blocked off the duodenum (first section of the small intestine). Her stomach was 10 times the size of a normal stomach. Well the Urgent Care folks immediately suspected something serious and sent her to Emergency. Several hours later we were told what they suspected and a CAT scan pretty much confirmed it.
Of course immediately we were asking what now? When do we schedule surgery etc etc. The doctor said this was well past that point since it had spread to the liver and probably to other areas as well. I won't go into my and my Dad's painful reactions but my Mom didn't react at all! When I blurted out "You knew didn't you?" she admitted that she had. I asked her why she didn't tell us and she said she had mentioned it to her doctor but he had told her it was all in her head. She said it was a relief to finally KNOW!
She actually said she is happy that they didn't catch it early. She watched her sister go through chemo and radiation treatments for the same disease and the horror she went through didn't provide any cure at all, it just removed all chance for any quality of life at the end. She is not in a lot of pain, except for her back problems which have plagued her for decades, so she is at peace with the idea that she is not going to live a whole lot longer.
We do hope that they will be able to place a stent in, to open up the duodenum, so that she will be able to eat something again even if it is only soup and jello. That would improve the quality of life she has left. It has only been since Tuesday morning when she last ate and she is already joking about how horrific it is to not be able to eat real food and would we please sneak a steak into her room at the hospital. We enjoy this because it has been a few weeks since
any food sounded good to her. They have been pumping her stomach for 4 days now and she is feeling a lot better.
Well we are getting to bed late again tonight but we wanted to see her safely tucked into her new room in Oncology and they didn't get her moved til after 10pm. We will head back to the hospital tomorrow where we are growing in numbers as more family members get here to offer their support. My oldest daughter (their 1st grandchild) will be leaving tomorrow afternoon and my youngest son will be arriving. My youngest brother will be here for another day and a half.
Even with all their support it was so wonderful to hear from all of you and to feel the love and positive energy that your were all sending us! Your prayers and good wishes meant more than you will ever know! I know we will get through this. It is all part of the circle of life and no one on this planet can escape the death of this body but although my Mom is at peace with this, the selfish part of me wants to keep her close to me forever. I won't ever tell her what to do though. I have already told her that I will not push her to endure treatments that she has no wish to suffer through. She is the only one that can decide what she is willing to tolerate.
I just want to repeat how much you all mean to me! I'm not sure exactly what it is but this thread and the people on it are really something else! Funny, caring, compassionate, fiery and passionate. Steve and I both enjoy reading this thread. I often smile, laugh and wonder when I'm reading your posts and I have learned sooo much from all of you! OK, enough! Carry on.
shes really very neat and i feel like once things calm down around here shes going to fit in well
