Hello Deerman, I don't know you, except from your posts on BYC. I would like to offer my prayers for you along with everyone. I would also like to say this. My husband has cancer, also. I have two children and 5 grandchildren, whom I love dearly. I have cats, dogs, llamas, goats, chickens, turkeys, guineas, peafowl. I spend time with my children and grandchildren, but they are not always here. My animals, on the other hand are always near. They give me such peace just watching them. If it were not for them, I think I would go crazy. I have watched every one of them grow into beautiful creatures and I know I always want them around me as long as long as I can take care of them. That is the factor that determines. I wish for you and your family peace and improved health.