I'm in shock. My two orpington girls, the giants of my flock, have been having issues with bumblefoot. They were on a course of antibiotics which got the lame one walking again, but I wasn't convinced it was properly gone. Our local vets will prescribe abx but don't offer surgery. Fast forward a couple of weeks and I'm waiting on some vet wrap, but today she couldn't walk and was sitting down all the time, and I had Veterycin and tape and decided I'd better operate. I gently wrapped the biggest girl who has had it the worst in a towel, draped it over her face and laid her across my knees with her feet where I could reach them. She'd had a long soak and I gently began to cut around the softened scab which was really distinct from the healthy tissue. Then she gave two jerks - and died Other than the bumblefoot and being a bit overweight - the ONLY time that hen ever ran it was for food - she looked healthy, shiny feathers, big red comb, only a couple of years old. The orps have never overly liked being handled and last time I looked at their feet they got a bit purply in the comb and gasped. It worried me then, but I figured, what choice did I have? Now I wonder where I've gone wrong. I've killed this hen. Is it a big no to have large breeds upside down? Could she have had a bad heart from being overweight, or is this just fright from being held this way and a scary consequence I could experience with any of these hens? I'm terrified now about what will happen to the other one, who is really mourning her sister - the other girl always led her to bed and tonight she didn't know where to go.