oh chicky that sucks big time, I hope you can get that off your chest and VERY SOON! That stuff weighs so heavy : (.
You see I had gotten really sick about 10 or so years ago and its been a long downward fall since, I thought I had it all! I had a huge spankin new house and beautiful property and simply gorgous views of all the mnts. I had my health and strength, I was think and pretty, I was fun and happy, I was smart and quick... I had a wonderful job as Office Manager and Full Charge bookkeeper for an architectural firm and not only did it pay well, I got to do some design work and so much computer work, which is what I went to school for.... anyway...... things were getting really bad, I was on and off medications, I was depressed, I was pumped with so many kinds of steroids and meds, I got fat, adding to the depression, got even more unhealthy and could no longer work and needed family med leave.... I was forced to sell the house, sell all the new cars and all the extra toys we had accumlated, and all in the lower bowels of the economy.... I lost an awful lot of money, I was the moneymaker and everything else.... I even lost my chickens, as we had to move in january and couldnt get the coop up the hill with 2 foot of snow on it, so a late night call to a friend neighbor and farmer to come take the chickens was made.... I was sooooo upset with DH I so wanted to move the coop to the front of the property so we could get it out, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO who the heck cares about what my interests and loves are!!! ugggg PO'd!!!
So we now live close to my home woods, actually If I screamed loud enough mom and dad could hear me.... in a tiny TINY raised ranch that needs ALOT of work, but the mortgage is workable and I have the babysitting and kids to keep me smiling.... along with all my new chickens and peeps, oh and my wonderful dogs!! LOL Now the health is getting worse again and even lost most of my babysitting kids this past month so times will be extremely tough the next several months. but I will figure something out, either making stuff and selling it or something or other.... THIS IS WHY ITS SO IMPORTANT TO ME to figure out a chicken plan and I so wish I could sell eggs for just a little income to help. I dont have alot of room so what breed I have and keep is a biggun. We sooo need extra income and if I can do this here and that there, well I am praying it will add up to help with the food, gas and misc stuff bills....
So I know that weight and I pray it is relieved soon chicky I truely do