Thanks for the good words guys! I did not kill the butcher but when he pulled up he did get out and ask if I was going to kill him LOL. He apologized, I apologized and he took care of the cow, so that's good and I'm now happy. Although when I told him I wanted the tongue this time, he just cut it out and handed it to me. DH just laughed and laughed. I just took it and walked it back to the house. Later DH said he probably handed it to me like that to get back at me for being such and ass to him. DH said that he saw the bags sitting there on the truck. Oh well, I just washed it off and put in in a bag in the fridge. There was no way I was gonna let Mike the butcher have the upper hand.
Today is day five for not smoking at all. I freaked out a little on DH yesterday, my nerves where shot. Today I'm way better. I honestly am really proud of myself for not giving in and smoking I chew alot of gum and have had to literally change the way I do things. Anything that triggers me like coffee, driving, after a big meal, has all changed because I don't like the feeling I get when I need/want a smoke. So, I also haven't had a freaking cup of coffee since Monday. That is driving me crazy!
Someone suggested gummy bears so I eat those like a hog while driving, anything to keep my mouth busy. I ate a big meal tonight and then wanted a smoke, so i had to get up and just stay busy.
If you read my other post on COPD, thats why I've stopped smoking. I'm breathing a little easier and am weaning off the nebulizer a little. I just thank God that I'm still breathing and have the strenght to do this. I cry alot which is so strange to me. Its pretty tough to let go of something that has ahold of you for 21 years.
I'm scared of the weekend. It will be a challenge I think to be home and left to my own devices. I bought wood and stuff in town and intend on doing some coop remodel. Wish me luck surviving the weekend since EVERYONE in my family smokes. Fortunately they can't do it in the house, so maybe I'll make it. I've been pretty grump about it and told everyone there is no smoking anywhere on our property. I don't even want it to smell it in the air. I'll bet it goes over like a lead balloon and I don't really care.
Thanks for listening again guys!