Ok Sumi:Hey everyone, thank you so much for the quotes, the video and the messages
I loved seeing and reading it all and it did make me cry as much as smile too!
This week + has been a rough one for me, I went and got sick. My body temperature went sky high several times, along with my blood pressure dropping way low. I couldn't eat at all and struggled to sleep as well for a few nights, with my body fighting the fevers I kept getting.
I've also donated endless samples of blood for testing, including directly from an artery (ouch), to the point where I told them to please stop, because they are draining me! LOL In addition to that I've been swapped and tested for flu, stomach bugs, you name it, they tested me for it... And treated me for it too. I said to a friend yesterday I won't be surprised if they tested me for bird flu as well.
One small benefit I guess is they stopped my chemo for the time being, as it compromises my immune system and they need my body to fight this now. The flip side is I'm taking about 16 pills daily now, starting with 5 for breakfast and ending with another 5 before I go to sleep at night. And I'm one of those "won't take a pill unless I absolutely have to" people, so this is really strange for me.
The doctors cannot yet tell me what exactly is the problem, but they are leaning towards a chest infection after yet another CT scan to try and find the problem found I have some "fluids" in one of my lungs.
I'm trying not to worry about all this now, I'm resting and eating as much as I can and taking the drugs and tolerating my new IV until this passes, which will hopefully be SOON!
Hope you all are having a good holiday season. Love you guys!
The good news out of all this starts off with "you are still here and you're still fighting!"
I don't know if you can do this but perhaps this can help you:. Can you listen to 30 minutes of classical music a day? I just heard about a study on the radio that was done testing the impact of classical music on the brain. It seems that the complex pitches, tones, arrangements & compilations of notes fire up all areas of the brain. Apparently they did CT scans on folks listening to classical music & scanned them again when not listening and found dramatically different results in terms of brain activity.
So maybe that could help?
And since you aren't a pill-taking-kinda-lady who's having to take a bunch of pills currently would it help to play a mental game? Take each pill, imagining it to be a miniature weapon in a video game. One they're all in & you're in a quiet place, imagine walking thru a chicken farm, filled to the brim with all kinds of beautiful chickens and roosters. Everyone is beautiful, healthy and living in peace. Your job is to find the things that don't belong. Close your eyes & see them in neon. These are the bad cells. Muster your weapons of health, call up your soldiers (those white blood cells), douse em with medicine & let the soldiers attack! *Poof*. Only beautiful chickens for as far as the eye can see...wait, that's more neon...GO GET 'EM, SUMI!!
You can do this. You can do anything. And your chicken family will help however we can.
I'd say that is the best Christmas present I could've asked for! My DS is absolutely over the moon too 
