I lost my husband last year too. It's hard isn't it? Hugs to you.
My DS1's father passed 12 years ago. I was only with him for 3 years but his life and death taught me so much. I truly believe he was meant to make the impact he did and I only hope he watches over our son as he has his own life obstacles.It is hard to lose a husband. My Calvin and I were together only about 3 years, and I knew he was terminal with leukemia from the start, but ... it was still devastating to lose him. I wasn't done with him yet! One of the last things he whispered to me before slipping into his final sleep was, "Be happy," and I am. I've married again and I'm loved. But I am SO looking forward to that happy day when the graves are opened and I'll see him again, free of pain and the ravages of disease, at Jesus' side. Oh happy day!
Two days before his dad passed (my 20th birthday), we had a talk about what we'd want for each other if one died young. I told him I wanted him to be alone and never move on
but he told me that he would want me to move on and be happy for our son. 5 years later, I met my now DH... coincidentally, it was after I finally accepted my loss and was willing to move on whether I was to be single the rest of my life or not, I was going to be happy.
Crazy how life happens.
