I remember it vividly to this day. I was newly married (March 2001) and my husband had come home the night before, having been gone since the first of April. He was an active duty Green Beret at that time. He had gone to post for PT, Cheyenne was off to school and I was waiting for him to come in to change uniforms. I was in a happy mood, I had just spoke to my favorite cousin, who was at work in the pentagon. I went to the kitchen to get coffee, I had CNN on and I heard about the first plane hitting the towers and went to watch.
I remember seeing the smoke rolling from the tower and tears came to my eyes as I spoke my prayer aloud "Creator have mercy for those people who are injured and welcome those who perished as they come home to you". I watched trying to figure out what had happened, who, where, why and I saw the second plane flying low and banking and I literally screamed "NO Creator NO" and it hit the second tower. I broke into uncontrollable sobs and I heard my husband's truck pull into the driveway. I heard the front door open and I heard him speaking to me as if he were at the end of a tunnel. I remember hearing him say "Honey what is it?" I remembering looking at him and saying "They are killing us".
No more than 3 minutes later our phone rang and it was his unit...I answered and a frantic voice said "Mrs. Smith?" I responded. the voice said "Maam all operators are recalled to Post immediately, he has 20 minutes to be here with his gear" I said "yes" and hung up.
My husband had no clue when he walked in the door that morning, that we would not speak to or see each other again for several weeks...
I was still watching when they announced the plane had hit the pentagon and my heart stopped. I waited for images of the pentagon and when they came across the screen I think I stopped breathing...when they said where the plane had hit I began crying...the plane hit the building just 4 windows from my cousin's office. My mind was wanting to call him, to call his mother or to call my mother. Was he in his office? Had his meeting already began putting him in another part of the building? It was hours before we knew that he had been in his office and that he had probably been killed. His twin brother called me to tell me. It was days before they found any part of him and weeks before DNA knew for sure that he had.
So, there I sat, states away from my family, my husband gone for who knew how long and I was trying deperately to come to grips with everything, to get in touch with my aunt, to find out answers.
My husband came home almost three weeks later and when he walked in the door I knew when he left this time that it would be months before I saw him again. It was over a year and the wounds still had not healed.
No, I do not think it has been forgotten. It is fading like every other tragedy in the past but we heal and we move forward, finding a private place within ourselves to put this event.