Ribh's D'Coopage

[rjohns39]

Howdy Y'all!!

Oh what a wild couple of days!! It's just been completely crazy.

I'm going to vent here for a minute, feel free to skip over it and look at the pictures!

I suffer from depression and anxiety. I am the type of person that is always smiling, laughing, and joking. I do this in part to prove to myself that I am happy and that nothing is wrong. It is exhausting doing this day in and day out. Rich does so much to support me and I do the same for him, since he also has depression and anxiety. There are so many days that I just want to stay in bed, but then I think about how much we are struggling with money and I get up and go to work.

I am also currently being worked up for an auto-immune disease. The top runner is Lupus, but it's not definite yet. I'm feeling myself become more lost. My joints constantly feel like there is sand in them and the pain can be unbearable. I have lost all of my strength to the point I can barely pick up my purse. Walking up the stairs in my house leaves me short of breath and soaked in sweat.

I just get so frustrated because all we want to do is raise our family and live life the best we can, yet I feel every time we begin to put a foot forward we fall back down 15 steps. We struggle so much financially it makes my head spin. Any more I feel like just giving up my job, that I love, and live off the system, but that is just not who I am. I will continue to get up and fight each day, I just wish the fights weren't always do darn often. Ok end of rant...

This was the sunset the other night. Rich's favorite color is purple and he just loved how the sky looked that night.
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This was my "commute" this morning. As @BY Bob can confirm, 322 in the major route from the north of Harrisburg (our state capital and major city) to the south. When there is an accident the entire area shuts down. My normal drive from home to work is 30 minutes. Today it took me an hour and a half!
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Beautiful Sunset. When I lived in the DC area, I was a little over 9 miles from my office, yet it could take up to 2 1/2 hours to get there if I didn't time it right.

Most importantly, you have friends here to give you all the moral support we can

 

[WhoDatChick]

Howdy Y'all!!

Oh what a wild couple of days!! It's just been completely crazy.

I'm going to vent here for a minute, feel free to skip over it and look at the pictures!

I suffer from depression and anxiety. I am the type of person that is always smiling, laughing, and joking. I do this in part to prove to myself that I am happy and that nothing is wrong. It is exhausting doing this day in and day out. Rich does so much to support me and I do the same for him, since he also has depression and anxiety. There are so many days that I just want to stay in bed, but then I think about how much we are struggling with money and I get up and go to work.

I am also currently being worked up for an auto-immune disease. The top runner is Lupus, but it's not definite yet. I'm feeling myself become more lost. My joints constantly feel like there is sand in them and the pain can be unbearable. I have lost all of my strength to the point I can barely pick up my purse. Walking up the stairs in my house leaves me short of breath and soaked in sweat.

I just get so frustrated because all we want to do is raise our family and live life the best we can, yet I feel every time we begin to put a foot forward we fall back down 15 steps. We struggle so much financially it makes my head spin. Any more I feel like just giving up my job, that I love, and live off the system, but that is just not who I am. I will continue to get up and fight each day, I just wish the fights weren't always do darn often. Ok end of rant...

This was the sunset the other night. Rich's favorite color is purple and he just loved how the sky looked that night.
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This was my "commute" this morning. As @BY Bob can confirm, 322 in the major route from the north of Harrisburg (our state capital and major city) to the south. When there is an accident the entire area shuts down. My normal drive from home to work is 30 minutes. Today it took me an hour and a half!
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I’m so sorry you are struggling.. I can sympathize as I struggled with anxiety and panic attacks for sometime (this year I finally feel normal) and it is quite simply the worst!!! I also thank you for feeling comfortable enough with us to share your troubles ...

He will cover you with His pinions, and under His wings you may seek refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and a bulwark.
Psalm 91:4

I pray you have peace...

 

[Ribh]

@Ribh Did someone win a new Medal? I think congratulations! Are in order!



It is well deserved. Welcome to the “friend” club!

Thanks Bob. I had a somewhat restless night & found it about 1am. In my befuddled state I thought it had been there for ages & I'd never noticed.

 

[Ribh]

Good morning Jeannie you're up either pretty late or early

Hey, Bob. Something of a *white night*. I was paddling round in the middle of it but slept either end. *sigh* I hate doing that.

 

[BY Bob]

Howdy Y'all!!

Oh what a wild couple of days!! It's just been completely crazy.

I'm going to vent here for a minute, feel free to skip over it and look at the pictures!

I suffer from depression and anxiety. I am the type of person that is always smiling, laughing, and joking. I do this in part to prove to myself that I am happy and that nothing is wrong. It is exhausting doing this day in and day out. Rich does so much to support me and I do the same for him, since he also has depression and anxiety. There are so many days that I just want to stay in bed, but then I think about how much we are struggling with money and I get up and go to work.

I am also currently being worked up for an auto-immune disease. The top runner is Lupus, but it's not definite yet. I'm feeling myself become more lost. My joints constantly feel like there is sand in them and the pain can be unbearable. I have lost all of my strength to the point I can barely pick up my purse. Walking up the stairs in my house leaves me short of breath and soaked in sweat.

I just get so frustrated because all we want to do is raise our family and live life the best we can, yet I feel every time we begin to put a foot forward we fall back down 15 steps. We struggle so much financially it makes my head spin. Any more I feel like just giving up my job, that I love, and live off the system, but that is just not who I am. I will continue to get up and fight each day, I just wish the fights weren't always do darn often. Ok end of rant...

This was the sunset the other night. Rich's favorite color is purple and he just loved how the sky looked that night.
View attachment 1924557

This was my "commute" this morning. As @BY Bob can confirm, 322 in the major route from the north of Harrisburg (our state capital and major city) to the south. When there is an accident the entire area shuts down. My normal drive from home to work is 30 minutes. Today it took me an hour and a half!
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I am sorry things have been so tough.
Autoimmune diseases are insidious. I hope they figure it out soon.

Did you live here when 322 was 1 lane in each direction? It did not take an accident for the commute to take that long, it always did.

Beautiful sunset. I wonder if that is the same one I got my purple one from?

 

[Ribh]

Jeannie, Congrats on that shiny new badge!

a badge!!

@Ribh Did someone win a new Medal? I think congratulations! Are in order!

Thanks everyone! Gosh, you're all terribly observant!

 

[Ribh]

Howdy Y'all!!

Oh what a wild couple of days!! It's just been completely crazy.

I'm going to vent here for a minute, feel free to skip over it and look at the pictures!

I suffer from depression and anxiety. I am the type of person that is always smiling, laughing, and joking. I do this in part to prove to myself that I am happy and that nothing is wrong. It is exhausting doing this day in and day out. Rich does so much to support me and I do the same for him, since he also has depression and anxiety. There are so many days that I just want to stay in bed, but then I think about how much we are struggling with money and I get up and go to work.

I am also currently being worked up for an auto-immune disease. The top runner is Lupus, but it's not definite yet. I'm feeling myself become more lost. My joints constantly feel like there is sand in them and the pain can be unbearable. I have lost all of my strength to the point I can barely pick up my purse. Walking up the stairs in my house leaves me short of breath and soaked in sweat.

I just get so frustrated because all we want to do is raise our family and live life the best we can, yet I feel every time we begin to put a foot forward we fall back down 15 steps. We struggle so much financially it makes my head spin. Any more I feel like just giving up my job, that I love, and live off the system, but that is just not who I am. I will continue to get up and fight each day, I just wish the fights weren't always do darn often. Ok end of rant...

This was the sunset the other night. Rich's favorite color is purple and he just loved how the sky looked that night.
View attachment 1924557

This was my "commute" this morning. As @BY Bob can confirm, 322 in the major route from the north of Harrisburg (our state capital and major city) to the south. When there is an accident the entire area shuts down. My normal drive from home to work is 30 minutes. Today it took me an hour and a half!
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I know anxiety & depression can be debilitating. When you're feeling down wrap yourself in that rug & remember someone Down Under cares. Not much I can do practically from here [always have a listening ear though ] but I will stand in agreement with @WhoDatChick *He will cover you with His pinions, and under His wings you may seek refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and a bulwark.*
Psalm 91:4

And that is one stunning sunset!

 

[BY Bob]

Thanks everyone! Gosh, you're all terribly observant!

I'm not quite sure how you feel about receiving yours but I vividly remember getting mine. It is a simple little thing but after everything with Patsy and then the flock being sick it was tremendously heart warming to receive it. Knowing that it meant you all appreciated me. I hope that it warms you as much as the rug warms me. Congratulations. It is much deserved.

 

[Ribh]

I'm not quite sure how you feel about receiving yours but I vividly remember getting mine. It is a simple little thing but after everything with Patsy and then the flock being sick it was tremendously heart warming to receive it. Knowing that it meant you all appreciated me. I hope that it warms you as much as the rug warms me. Congratulations. It is much deserved.

I was very surprised. I don't know how these things work & tend to operate as if I lived in a little bubble with just 1 or 2 others... Doubly surprising as it comes after a small unpleasantness & thus all the more appreciated.

 

[WhoDatChick]

Yes, congrats to you Ribh! I felt so special to receive mine!