So its been a rough week. I thought I had a little cold. Went to bed and took some OTC meds. I ended up in the ER with a temp around 106. I had to follow up with my doc who ended up being on vacation so her office referred me to someone filling in for her. I had complained that the cold had made it burn when I tried to breathe deep so they did a blood test just to rule out a pulmonary embolism ( or however its spelled). I had a baby 7 months ago and they all seem wicked concerned about this possibility so I let them do the test. I get the results. Ba news its positive you need a CT scan. I go to the hospital the next day and have my CT scan. The results, Good news there is no clot BUT you have non crystalized calcified pulmonary nodules. The nurse called to tell me this, she refused any other information, and told me to schedule a follow up CT scan in 6 months. My regular doctor is back tomorrow and I am going to follow up immediatly because frankly it feels like the nurse announced the end of my life. I know nothing of whats going on or how serious this is. If I need to be getting things in better order for my kids and my husband. Heck I feel ready to start taking applications for my replacement. I had pleurisy 3 almost 4 months ago where they did a chest scan. Nothing showed up on that so I am pretty sure this is new or they were too small to even see then. I have no clue on what size these are other than there are several, they are calcified and non crystalized. It sounds stupid but I just can't help feeling like they called so casual to end my life and then off to the bar they went. The nurse was in such a hurry. She got mad when I asked her to repeat what they had found. She actually was huffing into the phone. I try to pray but I just break down. I just really feel so down and defeated right now. My husband wants me to stay positive and I do try but its not easy. I sit there holding the baby, the kids are playing around me and I just break down and cry. We are not really telling most of the family or our friends since we know nothing. Its hard pretending everything is fine when it feels anything but fine right now.