Scared out of my mind and need to just talk it out.

Discussion in 'Family Life - Stories, Pictures & Updates' started by HeatherLynn, Jul 11, 2010.

  1. HeatherLynn

    HeatherLynn Songster

    May 11, 2009
    Kentucky, Cecilia
    So its been a rough week. I thought I had a little cold. Went to bed and took some OTC meds. I ended up in the ER with a temp around 106. I had to follow up with my doc who ended up being on vacation so her office referred me to someone filling in for her. I had complained that the cold had made it burn when I tried to breathe deep so they did a blood test just to rule out a pulmonary embolism ( or however its spelled). I had a baby 7 months ago and they all seem wicked concerned about this possibility so I let them do the test. I get the results. Ba news its positive you need a CT scan. I go to the hospital the next day and have my CT scan. The results, Good news there is no clot BUT you have non crystalized calcified pulmonary nodules. The nurse called to tell me this, she refused any other information, and told me to schedule a follow up CT scan in 6 months. My regular doctor is back tomorrow and I am going to follow up immediatly because frankly it feels like the nurse announced the end of my life. I know nothing of whats going on or how serious this is. If I need to be getting things in better order for my kids and my husband. Heck I feel ready to start taking applications for my replacement. I had pleurisy 3 almost 4 months ago where they did a chest scan. Nothing showed up on that so I am pretty sure this is new or they were too small to even see then. I have no clue on what size these are other than there are several, they are calcified and non crystalized.

    It sounds stupid but I just can't help feeling like they called so casual to end my life and then off to the bar they went. The nurse was in such a hurry. She got mad when I asked her to repeat what they had found. She actually was huffing into the phone. I try to pray but I just break down. I just really feel so down and defeated right now. My husband wants me to stay positive and I do try but its not easy. I sit there holding the baby, the kids are playing around me and I just break down and cry.

    We are not really telling most of the family or our friends since we know nothing. Its hard pretending everything is fine when it feels anything but fine right now.

  2. redhen

    redhen Kiss My Grits... Premium Member

    May 19, 2008
    Western MA
    I'm so sorry... i really hope that you can get into your doc asap and get some answers that will make you feel better. [​IMG]
  3. debilorrah

    debilorrah The Great Guru of Yap Premium Member

    First off, non crystalized calcified pulmonary nodules points to lung cancer, which makes me think the nurse didn't know her butt from page 8. NEVER do doctors allow a nurse to deliver news like that - it just isn't done. Make sure you call your regular doctor first thing in the morning and make sure the office staff understand the urgency to be seen immediately.

  4. agnes_day

    agnes_day Songster

    Aug 29, 2008
    from what ive read, she probably couldnt tell you because she didnt looks like you will have to have special tests to determine what is going on.
    i am sure everything will be ok though!!

    [​IMG] [​IMG]
  5. HeatherLynn

    HeatherLynn Songster

    May 11, 2009
    Kentucky, Cecilia
    I am just hoping and praying it isn't cancer. I have 4 little ones at home and all I can think of is how to prep them, how my husband will care for them. This just came from no where and I just don't know what to do other than cry. I'm just devestated. Tomorrow will be a busy day. I will be calling the doctor, and getting a referral to a pulmonologist and if necessary will start looking at cancer doctors. I just can't believe as I sit and hold the baby that I might not even see her go to kindergarden. So torn up. Tonight is the worst. 12 more hours till I can talk to the doctor.
  6. Rusty Hills Farm

    Rusty Hills Farm Songster

    Apr 3, 2008
    Up at the barn
  7. The Lisser

    The Lisser Songster

    I am so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time! [​IMG] I cannot offer any explanation of the medical stuff - I have no clue - but I hope you can take a deep breath and try to let go of the panic. First, it sounds like the nurse didn't know much about the situation, so you don't have all the facts - don't jump to conclusions yet, okay? (Believe me, I do the same thing all the time, though!!) Try to not play the "what if" game until after you've had a chance to talk to your doctor. Once you have more information about the condition, you can make decisions about if you need to pursue more tests, or a second opinion.

    I really hope that it turns out to be nothing too serious.

    [​IMG] Melissa

  8. chick4chicks

    chick4chicks Songster

    Apr 6, 2008
    N.E. Pa.
    [​IMG] I am so sorry you are going through this rough time. I Pray that everything turns out fine and you see all your children graduate and see them getting married. Best wishes. Take care. God Bless.
  9. cassie

    cassie Crowing

    Mar 19, 2009
    Take a deeep breath. Fix yourself a cup of tea. Breathe. Sip your tea. Write down any and all questions for the doctor. You won't remember anything when you get there so it's important you write everything down. Breathe. Remember. Just one day (or hour) at a time. I have had a hellish year, so I have a small (very small) idea of what you might be going through. I am so sorry.
  10. our 5 chickie babies

    our 5 chickie babies Chirping

    May 31, 2010
    Hello! You will be in our thoughts and prayers.I am not trying to preach to you but god hears all and will never give us more than we can bare.
    God Bless!!

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