Speckled Hen,
I am so sorry about Suede. I know you don't know me, but I recognize in your postings that you have with Suede, one of those once-(or twice)-in-a-lifetime relationships that are so rare. For me it was my cat, Mona, who was almost twenty when she died. We shared a birthday, I midwifed her delivery of three kittens when she was only five months old, and she "mothered" mine. Other pets have come and gone, all were loved and had their own endearing traits, some came very close (like Gus, the earlobe-sucking love machine cat) to the soul-mate status that Mona had. I still get teary when I think about them, like now. Mona's been gone eight years, next Tuesday, in fact, and it is still like it was yesterday. I am sure it will be the same for you. He will hold a very special place in your heart for a very long time, I am sure. You are in the thoughts of many here. He has made a huge impression on us all.
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