Stacey, I would have done the same thing. You need peace of mind when you feed your beautiful family and if you had any doubts about keeping those to process, it's better you did it now and have that out of the way. You dont need another thing to worry about. I'm sorry you're going through this, but think of it as a tunnel and you are probably in the middle, but a tunnel always has another end. You'll come out the other side into some fresh air and this will all be over soon. I'm glad you are finding the people you need to help you through it, too.
