Sitting with a cup of coffee. (coffee lovers)

[perchie.girl]

Nothing tastes like honey like honey!

and Mead....

 

[ronott1]

No need for anyone to reply, sitting here crying and I just needed to vent.

This day just totally stinks on so many different levels.

Still recovering from first "bug" I've picked up since being dxd w//CML over 8 years ago. Unfortunately I first shared it with the DH who is now soundly asleep after insisting on going to town with me this morning. A trip we knew was coming, I just didn't expect to have to make it so soon. We left with a pet carrier filled with the most loving, gentle creature anyone would ever want the blessing to know and we only brought the carrier back home. There was nothing left that could be done for her Feline Lymphoma and the past few days had told me that her quality of life was rapidly slipping away and after talking with my wonderful vet, I was forced to choose to do the hard thing, the heartbreaking thing, the loving thing, the right thing. Why is it the right thing is the one that always seems to be the most painful?

Anyway, Thanks for listening.
Now I have to get moving and start the stock for the chicken soup that my poor DH is going to be in serious need of very soon.

 

[Alaskan]

@chickisoup

Vent as much as you need, pooring it out, especially in writing, can be cathartic.

 

[chickisoup]

@chickisoup

Vent as much as you need, pooring it out, especially in writing, can be cathartic.

Thank you Alaskan (and ron, deb and everyone). Having great friends that are willing to just listen is often the greatest blessing of all.

 

[3goodeggs]

Chickisoup, Sorry about your loss. It is the hardest thing to do, but the kindest. The best parts of our lives never last long enough.

 

[Peep_Show]

Chickisoup --

It's the downside to pet ownership. And it also shows you care enough to care even after the caring is done.

 

[sourland]

Chickisoup, it's a responsibility we are allowed to address for our pets.

I also believe that we should be able to make the same decision for ourselves.

 

[Bunnylady]

No need for anyone to reply, sitting here crying and I just needed to vent.

This day just totally stinks on so many different levels.

Still recovering from first "bug" I've picked up since being dxd w//CML over 8 years ago. Unfortunately I first shared it with the DH who is now soundly asleep after insisting on going to town with me this morning. A trip we knew was coming, I just didn't expect to have to make it so soon. We left with a pet carrier filled with the most loving, gentle creature anyone would ever want the blessing to know and we only brought the carrier back home. There was nothing left that could be done for her Feline Lymphoma and the past few days had told me that her quality of life was rapidly slipping away and after talking with my wonderful vet, I was forced to choose to do the hard thing, the heartbreaking thing, the loving thing, the right thing. Why is it the right thing is the one that always seems to be the most painful?

Because in this case, even though you know it's an end to the suffering, it feels like treachery. She loved you, you loved her, you wanted her life to go on and on, and yet you had to make the choice to end it. Blessed indeed are the pets that manage to live a full life, and just slip off quietly in their sleep - though their owners grieve their loss too, they are spared the pain (and yes, guilt) of having to choose the time when their lives end. I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[chickisoup]

Because in this case, even though you know it's an end to the suffering, it feels like treachery. She loved you, you loved her, you wanted her life to go on and on, and yet you had to make the choice to end it. Blessed indeed are the pets that manage to live a full life, and just slip off quietly in their sleep - though their owners grieve their loss too, they are spared the pain (and yes, guilt) of having to choose the time when their lives end. I'm sorry for your loss.

No, the treachery was the work of the lousy rotten cancer. I didn't have to make the choice, I could have let her go on. I chose to put an end to her suffering even tho I knew it would break my heart, because I loved her that much to do that last loving thing for her. My only guilt was in not spotting the seriousness of her condition sooner but the vet made me feel better about that when she told me it didn't matter because we had pretty much done all that could be done by the current treatments. Had we known sooner we might have administered some very expensive chemo drugs that would have just delayed the inevitable anyway as feline lymphoma has no cure and there was no guarantee she would have even responded to it. She loved us and she knew we loved her. The "right thing" just hurt so bad because I didn't (and still don't) want her to go. She was supposed to grow old with me, just two old ladies sitting together in the summer sun, watching the chickens playing in the herb garden. The treachery was the cancer stealing that from us.

 

[chickisoup]