So....talk about.....CANCER SUPPORT THREAD !!

[sumi]

I've been quiet myself for awhile, digesting the news and just being whatever I needed to be and feel what I needed to feel for a while. Grumpy mostly. I'm feeling better and more positive now. Going to see the doctor again next week Wednesday, then I'll know how she wants to proceed with this.

@Mamachic1967 how are you?

 

[scottcaddy]

I've been quiet myself for awhile, digesting the news and just being whatever I needed to be and feel what I needed to feel for a while. Grumpy mostly. I'm feeling better and more positive now. Going to see the doctor again next week Wednesday, then I'll know how she wants to proceed with this.

@Mamachic1967 how are you?

and best

Scott

 

[Mamachic1967]

Exactly. Hearing it, taking it in and coming to terms with it is a challenge but what we have is to be strong and to keep on keeping on. I can understand feeling grumpy, I think were allowed

I'm doing okay, thank you for asking. Started having some real bad muscle cramping (side effect of Chemo I'm on), pretty wicked pain but feeling stronger past few days, just in time to start next treatment and go through it all again. At least I know what to expect this time; I think. How can I make myself stop worrying about dying? I'm so scared, it's all I think about.

 

[oldhenlikesdogs]

I went through chemo. Every 3 weeks for 6 treatments. I had horrible leg pains that has ended in my just having a knee replaced because of it. Try to focus on living and making it through chemo. The fear of death will be there for a while unfortunately. I'm glad to hear you have started treatment. Sending good thoughts and wishes your way.

 

[Mamachic1967]

Why did you have to have your knee replaced because of the leg pain? Does the leg pains cause permanent damage? The pain is truly awful I could barely walk; now taking an inflammatory which takes the edge off.
I'm glad you responded to my post. I'm always worried I might say the wrong thing on here or how I'm feeling no one else is feeling the same. This reasures me, thank you.

 

[sumi]

Exactly. Hearing it, taking it in and coming to terms with it is a challenge but what we have is to be strong and to keep on keeping on. I can understand feeling grumpy, I think were allowed

I'm doing okay, thank you for asking. Started having some real bad muscle cramping (side effect of Chemo I'm on), pretty wicked pain but feeling stronger past few days, just in time to start next treatment and go through it all again. At least I know what to expect this time; I think. How can I make myself stop worrying about dying? I'm so scared, it's all I think about.

I'm sorry to hear that

We are definitely allowed to be grumpy and angry and scared. We're all human here and this is a big thing. What really helped me over the scary bits was staying positive and focussing on things beyond what was happening. Thinking ahead, of the future and planning things like no matter what, I'm going to be there, doing them. For awhile I did not know how advanced my cancer was, or what the future held for me and that was difficult, I thought about dying too and decided to focus on living instead. Even when it was hard to, I tried. That helped me through some of the rough patches.

 

[oldhenlikesdogs]

Why did you have to have your knee replaced because of the leg pain? Does the leg pains cause permanent damage? The pain is truly awful I could barely walk; now taking an inflammatory which takes the edge off.
I'm glad you responded to my post. I'm always worried I might say the wrong thing on here or how I'm feeling no one else is feeling the same. This reasures me, thank you.

I had some arthritis before chemo. When they did my knee replacement 4 weeks ago they found brittle bone. They removed it and sent it in for testing. It is just dead bone, which they said chemo can cause. I had horrible leg pains during chemo, my legs felt like they would shatter when I walked on them. I complained but was not listened to at the time. They did eventually give me some pain pills that helped, but since chemo walking has always been difficult and painful, now I know why.

 

[sumi]

I got a letter from the hospital shortly after my results, letting me know an appointment has been made for me for the 16th (Wednesday). About 3 days ago I got a phone call, asking if they can change the time to an earlier slot, I agreed. I assumed in light of the results that the doctor wants to discuss it with me, discuss further treatments (if any) etc, like they did last time. Well, I got another note in the mail, a "prepare for surgery" do and don't list. With some details on what the surgery would be for. "Multiple biopsy and destruction" It sounds scary when they put it that way! So, now I know what the appointment is for… I'm relieved to know it will be done soon and even more so that this time it will be a quick in and out procedure, not the whole series of nuclear medicine (which was horrible) and all the trimmings. So, step 2 on Wednesday and hopefully the last for a long while.

 

[scottcaddy]

Hoping for a quick procedure with good results!

Scott

 

[sumi]

Thank you, Scott

I gathered from the form that this will be a quick, simple procedure. I can't tell you how relieved and happy I am about that! The previous follow up in January was a 2-day story with nuclear medicine, full anaesthetic surgery and and and… It was horrible. And scary.