sorry but I have a shitty family that has raised me telling me that I'm a worthless piece of shit and will be nothing in this world
		
		
	 
That's really sad. They were wrong.
	
		
	
	
		
		
			thank you, but I have my own, if extremely unhealthy coping mechanisms
		
		
	 
I used to as well. I wouldn't consider my family bad or anything, I was overly sheltered to the point I wondered if they were protecting the world from me instead of protecting me from the world. I was so isolated I thought I had to be the reason. And those coping mechanisms didn't work long term. Realizing that "I am fearfully and wonderfully made" (Psalm 139:14) made me realize, God doesn't think I'm worthless. And this applies to you too. 
 
 
	
		
	
	
		
		
			eh it's fine, I'm used to it, my outlook on life isn't very good and I'm frequently very depressed and or suicidal but at the same time I'm just numb to everything at this point
		
		
	 
"When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken." (Psalm 34:17-20 ESV)
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10 ESV)
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11 ESV)
I find some comfort in these. And to be fair, I'm still discovering and figuring things out myself. I don't know how to "fear not" yet, and still deal with anxiety, but at least I have hope that it's possible, and that God hears prayers.
	
		
	
	
		
		
			Agree with Isadora, think about that if a Creator is real, he took time and thought in making you. He knew you, and knows you probably more than you know yourself. 

God took me out of depression when I got saved, and through His spirit He has given me a great peace in my soul. <3
		
 
 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” (Jeremiah 1:5 ESV)
I think He knows us really well. 

 If He knew Jeremiah this well before even creating him, He probably knows each human this well.
So glad that God took you out of depression!  
