I just needed one more venue to freak out! I have exhausted all my IRL ones! LOL I am having surgery tomorrow afternoon. Normally I handle everything well and everyone thinks I am so strong...blah...blah Well, being put to sleep is my #1 fear. A real, genuine phobia. I have panic attack, nightmares, crying spells. This has been fairly continuous for the past week. And now it's time. This is actually a fairly major surgery. They are still trying to fix the damage done when I had my 4th son 18 months ago. I am not terribly afraid of the surgery, the healing afterward, any pain...no biggie, I am tough. Being put to sleep, on the other hand, turns me into a worthless, gelatinous blob! There has to be someone out there besides me who feels this way? It makes me feel like I am losing my mind! *sigh* Anyway, that's all. Just needed to vent! Had to give my poor hubby a small break!