Okay, I have to vent as I can't do it at home.
Granny had a stroke at Christmas.
Mom had a stroke this month.
Dad has been trying to deal with both of them but can't.
Mom has had a drastic personality shift and has become one of the meanest, most foul mouthed, irritating persons I have ever met.
Grandmother was living with parents but has now moved in with me.
I have been doing everything for my grandmother to give Dad a break, have 2 children at home, 1 graduating and attending college, farm, husband, and full time job.
Personal sickness that I haven't discussed with anyone, job sucks and stress there is thru the roof, and I don't have enough time in the day to do anything enjoyable.
Have a bill to pay that will take every bit of saving and scrimping so that means I can't attend a single chicken show this year, no new books (my second passion), kids are instructed to be extremely careful with shoes and clothes and not to wear the good ones on the farm, etc, etc.
Husband's family has a whole host of issues going on.
Strong winds this week flipped and rolled down the hill, thru the stream, and up into the other pasture, my chicken house with the show silkies in it.
Everyone has had their own personal meltdown moment for them to have a chance to scream and cry, but me. I am the one that has to keep everything on track.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Okay I feel better letting someone know that I am in over my head.