Things you wish you could say

This year I've been feeling so bad about gum recession, kyphosis, and microplastics, along with a few other physical concerns, and it has made me feel terrible about my condition now relative to what it was even like 2 years ago, in addition to feeling like I'm missing out on life experiences and accomplishments generally. I also wish I had a cleaner and better living space. I feel stuck. I haven't worked on the next chemistry unit and I really need to soon. My sleep schedule sucks too. I wish it seemed like things would feel less doomed in the future. I should go outside and walk around more, especially since the fall is one of my favorite times to, and I don't want to miss it this year like I did last year. I feel like the subjective experience of it would feel better/fuller if I were in a better place in life though, and it evokes a sort of wistfulness.
 
I feel like the subjective experience of it would feel better/fuller if I were in a better place in life though, and it evokes a sort of wistfulness.
Well said, and I relate to this a lot. About to enter my favorite time of year at one of my lowest points. I'm so sorry it feels like nothing is going right. Hang in there with me. :hugs
 
I think my dad was 25 or so when he got a bachelor's degree and seems to think it's okay to take a while too and not do full-time classes. I've felt pretty bad about my slow and inconsistent progress though, like the decent amount of semesters when I haven't taken classes, and also since I first took them when I was 17 and it's been a long time since then. I haven't worked on math in a while either. All of it that I'd need to do to get a degree seems pretty overwhelming. I started working on it on Khan Academy last December and then managed to place into chemistry 1 in July so I could keep making at least some progress towards a degree this year, but I think my math knowledge is still lacking. I think I have around 1/3 of the course requirements I need for a bachelor's degree though, which is definitely better than nothing. I wish my daily life were better/more favorable to studying/learning and handling more classes, but it feels hard to change. But I'll need to change it if I'm ever going to take truly challenging classes in the future. I guess I feel broadly bad about missing out on experiencing life more when young, but actually changing my daily life feels massively hard.
There are math classes designed just for your situation. They'll boost both your understanding AND your confidence! I didn't "get" Algebra until I was well into my 20's (THANK YOU Mr. Bogdan!) and ended up using it daily in my career.
And yes, I understand the fear of moving forward all too well. An old friend gave me quote I still rely on:
"A ship at harbour is safe, but that's not what ships are for."
Sail on, M'Dear. Sail on!
 

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