Things you wish you could say

This is freaking exhausting. Mentally, physically...everything is exhausting and I'm losing my sense of self and individuality. To follow my dreams or be sensable? Are my dreams even dreams anymore or just shells of past, lost hope that life could actually go the way I wanted. It feels selfish to want basic things in life. It feels like an unrealistic fantasy to see a future where I could have a normal life. High hopes or ignorance? It sucks to live in a generation where a simple life seems so unattainable no matter how hard I try.
 
The Labyrinth, with David Bowie is coming back after Christmas. I wish I could say that I already have tickets to see it on the largest screen I can find!
I was not a fan of that movie when it came out. It scared me but I would give it another chance
 
I wish I could say that my Sisters arrival at Mum's today is not already causing stress. I know they love each other and are looking forward to time together after 2yrs apart (different countries and the last time was only a short visit after the previous 5 yrs apart) but I can see these 2 driving each other crazy and yours truly having to be the peace maker - till sis's hubby can sell their house and join her in Aust. and buy a house. Which will be another drama with the housing shortage in Aust. Maybe I can just go on holiday to someplace else.
 
I wish I could say that my Sisters arrival at Mum's today is not already causing stress. I know they love each other and are looking forward to time together after 2yrs apart (different countries and the last time was only a short visit after the previous 5 yrs apart) but I can see these 2 driving each other crazy and yours truly having to be the peace maker - till sis's hubby can sell their house and join her in Aust. and buy a house. Which will be another drama with the housing shortage in Aust. Maybe I can just go on holiday to someplace else.
I wish I could say, "Here's a plane ticket, come on over!"
 
Wish I could say that I had someone whom I felt like I could truly and confidently consider a best friend, someone whom I didn't always have to worry that I was a bother to, someone whom I really seriously felt like I could trust with things, didn't make me feel bad or stupid, someone who was just there to talk to, and I was entirely and completely comfortable with... and that they felt all the same about me.
 

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