Thread formerly known as Hatch day is today

[stillmecle]

I don't know why I'm telling you guys all of this. Maybe to make you realize why I am going to probably have to have surgery again. We talk to my neighbors and tell them about they say things like, what are you, a hypercondriac that has surgery just to get attention.

 

[stillmecle]

I hate these things that are happening to my body now. I am almost 54 years old, i have had surgery to remove a brain tumor, still have a brain tumor, that's really something that a person wakes up one day one day and says i want attention, i think. I will pretend i have a brain tumor and oh I'm gonna have surgery for that. I didn't ask for that.

 

[stillmecle]

why am I still rambling my thoughts and feelings to you guys? You don't know me, it's just a way to put to people that I feel I care and have you all understand what I'm going through to hopefully have another support system. To help me get through all of this again.

 

[stillmecle]

Having the ducks, hatching eggs, and talking to you ladies gives me a little piece of mind and helps take away some of the pain I go through. The thought of another surgery is depressing me so badly.

 

[stillmecle]

I don't think I can continue the way I do right now with my body. The doctor says I can not work anymore because my body is so broken down now. It needs repaired and time to heal. I think once these eggs hatch, i am going to sell of as many as I can, keep maybe just a drake and a couple of ducks then stop for a while. Or i get rid of all my ducks and hatch eggs and sale babies all the time. Sell them as soon as they are born. That way I don't have a whole lot of work to do. No more cleaning poop hauling water and feed out to them. Do the easy part and then be done

 

[stillmecle]

Well I had you guys read enough of my pity party, so I guess for now I'll try to go back to sleep. Talk to you again later and I will be here for the 10,000 post.

 

[stillmecle]

Do you ever go back and read what you wrote down, either here, in a letter, or your diary, and wondered why you ever wrote those words down for others to read, I almost feel that way this morning. I should not be telling you guys my problems. You don't know me and I shouldn't make you guys read about my problems and make you guys think that all I do is complain. But I think I am slowly fallng apart and I need somebody to know. I know people have more problems than mine but I need to get these thoughts and feelings out and sorry but at this time of the morning you guys are the only ones here, even though you aren't at the moment but you will be later and you will know that I consider you guys a part of my life.

 

[stillmecle]

Gawd I sound so pathetic. I need a diary to write this **** down in instead of here. Geez. Can I take all that I wrote down back. Where is that delete button.

 

[stillmecle]

Today I think is gonna be a me day. Clean the duck house first, yuck. Then it is my time. Spend some time here, go get a massage if they can fit me in, and then come back to here.

 

[stillmecle]

I wonder if I could post 200 post before you guys woke up? By myself. Hmmmm