I'm so sorry for your losses. Some parts of life really do suck.
You are traumatized. Please seek assistance from a local Grief Support group; you can find them by contacting your local hospital. You are suffering grief and guilt (even irrational guilt hurts!) over the loss of loved ones, as well as the loss of your former healthy, active life. If there are no specific grief support groups close enough, general counseling (consider it an ongoing, lifelong aid, not a short "therapy") is widely available, and is often pro-rated by income (sometimes free) if that is a concern. I don't know what kind of pain your are experiencing, but know that major hospitals have specific pain clinics; some types of pain can be reduced by "blocks," a steroid injection into specific nerve areas. Only "Pain Management Physician" specialists can do this. Insurance does cover it in most instances.
I know it's hard to make the calls when you are hurting and depressed; maybe your wife or a friend can help get you set up with some appointments that might help ease your life a bit.
Best wishes to you, friend. I hope you find relief here on Earth.
You are traumatized. Please seek assistance from a local Grief Support group; you can find them by contacting your local hospital. You are suffering grief and guilt (even irrational guilt hurts!) over the loss of loved ones, as well as the loss of your former healthy, active life. If there are no specific grief support groups close enough, general counseling (consider it an ongoing, lifelong aid, not a short "therapy") is widely available, and is often pro-rated by income (sometimes free) if that is a concern. I don't know what kind of pain your are experiencing, but know that major hospitals have specific pain clinics; some types of pain can be reduced by "blocks," a steroid injection into specific nerve areas. Only "Pain Management Physician" specialists can do this. Insurance does cover it in most instances.
I know it's hard to make the calls when you are hurting and depressed; maybe your wife or a friend can help get you set up with some appointments that might help ease your life a bit.
Best wishes to you, friend. I hope you find relief here on Earth.