I am so sorry that the verdict was not way I was hoping for. I understand what the impact of abuse can be, and the impact of not having anyone believe in you is truly awful. For me it wasn't so much being molested, but finding myself to blame for everything was devastating. I know that the person that did that to me has still never acknowledged the event either. What scares me the most is that he apologized for tormenting me for years before I was 5 years old. He isn't much older than myself, but I am left to wonder about how bad things were. I also got blamed by my parents for being tormented, if they hadnt been so busy and overwhelmed by the life that they chose who knows if it would have made any difference to my life. I was often described as my familys crybaby, I have a much better understanding of what happened, and I am sure that it really wasn't my fault.