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Yes while I may not be able to pick many of MY BYC BUDDIES (who) ROCK out in a crowd. I don't consider any of you as strangers cause ya can't be any stranger than me. It means so much to me to have all of your support.
I will tell you that I refused to give up my cell phone as I knew that could be my "life line" to the outside world. Because the only BYC number I had was Chickielady's wonderful husbands cell # I was able to text him and knew that CL would get the message and pass it on to MY BYC BUDDIES (who) ROCK !!!
I had actually tried to get things planned out to make it easier for DW, DsD and Michelle "just in case" I didn't come home that night. While waiting for DsD to get here (she had to drive 25 miles) I laid out things that I may need IF I was going to be booked for a while. I also had a plan in place that would have allowed me to get my BYC fix.
While I am sorry for scarring all of you. I can not begin to express how much it means to know that I have such a great group of friends out there who care so much! Now I have to make some important changes to my life. Unfortunarely the change that is the most important is kind out of my hands.
I now have a whole new persepctive of anxiety !!
And just to put to rest any speculation ( not that I think you are judging me) I am going to basically lay out my life style. I don't smoke but I use smokeless tobacco, I am working stopping that. I rarely drink beer
and if I do it's only one. I do occasionally have a drink of whiskey (when available). I do not drink to get drunk. I have one just to help relax. I do not use any kind of "street drugs". I rarely take OTC meds and only take RX's as needed and prescribed. When I had shoulder surgery I refused to pain meds so I could keep a clear head to take care of DW.
OK sorry for the rant but now you may know me better. If this causes to think less of me so be it I am who I am. But what I really hope is that by exposing myself I may help others to see that you really don't have to be doing things that wrong to end like this.
I love MY BYC BUDDIES (you) ROCK !!!
CR I highly doubt that this rant of yours is going to make anyone think less of you!
How could we? Your awsome, and goofy, and just a big kid in general! So very glad you are doing ok.
Yes while I may not be able to pick many of MY BYC BUDDIES (who) ROCK out in a crowd. I don't consider any of you as strangers cause ya can't be any stranger than me. It means so much to me to have all of your support.
I will tell you that I refused to give up my cell phone as I knew that could be my "life line" to the outside world. Because the only BYC number I had was Chickielady's wonderful husbands cell # I was able to text him and knew that CL would get the message and pass it on to MY BYC BUDDIES (who) ROCK !!!
I had actually tried to get things planned out to make it easier for DW, DsD and Michelle "just in case" I didn't come home that night. While waiting for DsD to get here (she had to drive 25 miles) I laid out things that I may need IF I was going to be booked for a while. I also had a plan in place that would have allowed me to get my BYC fix.
While I am sorry for scarring all of you. I can not begin to express how much it means to know that I have such a great group of friends out there who care so much! Now I have to make some important changes to my life. Unfortunarely the change that is the most important is kind out of my hands.
I now have a whole new persepctive of anxiety !!
And just to put to rest any speculation ( not that I think you are judging me) I am going to basically lay out my life style. I don't smoke but I use smokeless tobacco, I am working stopping that. I rarely drink beer
OK sorry for the rant but now you may know me better. If this causes to think less of me so be it I am who I am. But what I really hope is that by exposing myself I may help others to see that you really don't have to be doing things that wrong to end like this.
I love MY BYC BUDDIES (you) ROCK !!!
CR I highly doubt that this rant of yours is going to make anyone think less of you!
