How are you feeling today? I just read your post and you seem so sad and lonely,can you talk to someone? The death of a beloved pet is heartbreaking. I know you feel like this pain will never go away,but i promise you that it will,in time you will be able to think of Daffodil and your heart will not feel like it is breaking and that you cannot stop crying. Save all those little black feathers you find,perhaps they are a gift from her and she is letting you know she is ok and happy,and that you should not worry about her. I agree with you,not being able to bring all you girls must have been horrible and to have to choose only 3,extremely heartbreaking. Was there a reason for not being able to take all 5,and have you told your parents that you are having difficulties coping with the decision they made? I also agree that your girls should not have been given away without your permission,this was wrong. You sound like a very loving and caring child,do not become so very depressed over this that you cannot deal with it,please talk to someone if you are having difficulties. Give all your girls a kiss and a hug,they all know you love them,including Daffodil. Placing flowers on her grave is a lovely idea. Please do not let this take over your life,this unfortunately does happen,and i know it does not comfort you. For every death there is a birth,perhaps in time you may want to get another black chick,you will love her just as much as you do Daffodil.
Take care and remember if you need to talk,someone is always on this forum,and we will talk to you.