What do you do to stop crying when you know you must!!!!!

[bargain]

Just been a rough one with one thing after another but the worst was the totally unexpected death of a7 month old girl goat this morning who was my pet. Her name was Blue Bonnet. She was the first born of my oldest milk goat and a beautiful solid white Goat, such a sweetie pie and always playing and so glad to see me!!!! She was bottle fed and always so gentle...I cannot seem to stop crying about it. She was just fine yesterday and when I went outside at 7:15 am she was on the ground thrashing around and eyes rolling and died in my arms. It was not a seizure...It was her last few minutes of life...She just died totally unexpectedly. She was so precious to me and I just cannot tell you how sad that this made me and my family. I'm grateful that I was there the last few minutes of her life but I'm in shock and sadness. She died within 20 minutes of my being with her. No vet office was opened. There would be no way any vet could have saved her at that point. I am going to have a necropsy done to see what happened. There were no signs of injury, no trauma... It's a total mystery to me.

We had customers on the farm today for their last minute holiday purchases.....I barely held back the tears and could not talk much to them....

Now that the customers are all gone, I'm just a basket of tears.......I feel so badly as I know this is a celebrating time for us but the more I try to stop the tears, the more I cry. I've so looked forward to Christmas for weeks for the importance it has for our family but also to be with family and friends, but I really just want to be away from everyone and have a major cry....

So what do you do to stop crying?

 

[little horse]

i am so sorry, i really dont know much about goats but do know how hard it is to lose a loved pet esp before the holidays, my thoughts are with you dont feel bad you need to cry, lots of hugs your way.

 

[EweSheep]

 

[Jenski]

Why stop? Let 'er rip.

And when you're cried out, why not consider what a wonderful gift you gave your little friend. In all my years, in all I've seen and done, I figure one of the greatest gifts is to be there by someone's side when they are passing over. How tough for you, how wonderful for her to have a familiar friend next to her when she made her transition. What a wonderful comfort for the little one.

Try not to feel too helpless. Sometimes all we can do for others is stand with them as witness as they pass through their own life paths. Find comfort and peace, and bless you for feeling empathy for another living creature.

 

[fancbrd4me02]

You will stop crying when you are ready. I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[Countrywife]

Why must you stop? Mourn your little friend, and move on when it is time.

 

[cassie]

I am very sorry for your loss. Been there, done that. Do you have any more kids? Make sure they are vaccinated for entero( clostridium perfingens). In all liklihood that is what killed your kid.

 

[eenie114]

Somthing like that happened to me. Two of our goats were needing wormed, and our IDIOT vet perscribed cattle wormer. It was a pour-on, and off-label for goats. Well, we put it on all of them, including the one that wasn't symtomatic,(just like the vet said to) and hoped for the best. Well, two days later my mom went to walmart. I went out to check on the goats, (two were expecting babies any day) and found little Root Beer lying in the field. She was already dead, and when we looked up the wormer, we found out it had been killing other goats too. Well, we were too emotional to call the vet, and just let it go. This year we wanted to get our cow preg checked, and called the vet. We told them about what had happened to our goat, they got mad and fired US!!
They said that if they weren't gonna call and have them do an autopsy, maybe we were just ready to be our own vets and didn't need them!

Im very sorry about Blue Bonnet, I understand.

 

[CityGirlintheCountry]

 

[FarmerChick]

You don't need to stop crying. It will stop on its own.
Sometimes a good long hard cry helps the most!! Let it happen.
You will smile again very soon. Family and friends is what makes the holiday special. Enjoy them.