Where are you?

[beach livin']

Im on a long straight road it seems. With no shade trees in sight. I have one child who is 6, and have been trying to have another for the past 4 years. I finally broke down and talked to a doctor about our fertility issues. I have 3 months to get pregnant on medication, and if that doesnt work, we have to do really expensive procedures; which we know we cant afford, thence, we will not do them. My husband and I have allready talked about adoption, and we know that will be our next step if we fail at creating another child. Im stuck in a job that has no advancement opportunities, and half my paycheck goes to the government for all sorts of taxes. But at least I have a job. Im trying to convince my husband to relocate back home, but he is refusing. Im over weight, and starting to slide back into that rut along my long road. Thats my life right now

 

[turney31]

Oh cindiloohoo...I should have known God would send you with a question just when I need to vent!

Well first let me say what lucky children those are. You have a heart of GOLD.

Well, about where we are..... We are barely getting by. Retirement check, steady. Nothing extra. We both worked side jobs to get through this rough year. And we both QUIT them " based on principle "

DH's story- Hired on at a trucking company delivering appliances for Lowes. Was told the pay was ave. $300. to $400. A week depending on the number of deliveries. Well after 4 mos. not making more than $275,( Except once he made $300 after he mowed the bosses yard. ) he asked about the money. Now keep in mind there were many 10 and 12 hr days a week. He was told by the boss that he should be thankful he got that, because the only hard part of the job was loading and unloading the truck and the rest was just driving the truck.

DH quit on principle Now keep in mind he worked 33 years at his last job.

Now my dumb story-I worked at a bed and breakfast , housekeeping. Get paid $12. an hour, doesn't sound too bad, but if no one stays, no money.This is the busy season at this establishment due to the Polar Express steam train excursions. This place sleeps 12 people in beds and 14 if they use the sleeper sofa. Lots of quick turnarounds. It is a bunkhouse and I have to clean the whole house not " just a room" Check out at 11, check in at 3. Not unusual to have anywhere from 1 to 9 beds to make up. Fully stocked kitchen to clean. Fireplace ashes, all the towels to wash and dry. ( I bring the sheets and blankets home to wash. ) Restock firewood. Vaccum the loft and shop vac the downstairs and mop. Clean the bathroom and a seperate shower in another utility room. Dust! It is fully decorated for Christmas.
Hard to do? You bet, I go skidding out the back door about the time the new quests arrive.

What happened this week... The owners traded a weekend at the bunkhouse for advertising. The owners mom stays right before the magazine people. Mom always leaves the place a hot, holy mess, but tells her son she leaves it in good shape. How do you tell on his Mom??? Rock and a hard place huh! I diplomatically express my concerns about getting it clean on time. Mom decides to stay an extra day making it a quick turn clean. Knocks out mowing the yard. Mom calls me stating don't worry I'll leave it clean...Owner mad at mom for calling me and states " She WILL be out of there by 11."

We were waiting for Mom to leave and at 11:19 she drove her car to where we were and was laughing and said "Well I just have to brush my teeth and load the car and then we'll be out of your way." I was not happy, she states its only 19 after... I said, that 19 minutes might make the difference between being finished or not. She says come on and start cleaning...no... not going in until everyones things are out. Its a cover your butt kind of thing with me. What if someone lost money or jewerly? Would I get blamed. So no I will not go in untill everything is out. She is out at 11:35. I am now very pressed for time. Cleaned it even though everything in me wanted to just leave it.

I called my boss and told them that the work I could stand but the disrespect and inconsideration I could not. I gave my notice. I quit on principle...

I just hope the Lord will help find us jobs and not shake his head and say

you big dummies.

Back to red beans and rice!

 

[Cindiloohoo]

Palestinian you sure know how to cause a ruckus

I would have done the same thing hun

Hang in there sister and be on the lookout for another open door

SO glad you got to vent all that frustration! I'll be praying for you

BHep 50 children...WOW! You are amazing! Just like anything else I'm sure it has it's pros and cons. Kids can be a challenge and knowing their background, I know these three will be. One day at a time though

Squishy, you my dear, are a riot

Your poor poor mother

I bet she's proud of ya though, I would be

Debi! I didn't know Robert was no longer with you! That is GREAT he has gone back to his mom and you all get to enjoy being just the two of you! Have fun girl!

Lothiriel better days are ahead. I remember how hard it was just starting out and everything was a challenge!!! Bless you! I wouldn't do it again to save my life, but it does have it's rewards, especially later on down the road in life, when you can look back and see all you have accomplished and how far you came in such a short time. I know it FEELS like it takes forever to get established in life with who you are, but let me encourage you by saying, one day soon you will look back and be impressed that you had the spirit and drive to do what you had to do. Young folks have it rough these days, but then we all have had those days.

It will make you a much stronger better person for having experienced tough times. I hope for your sake that you do have it hard, because it will allow you to DEEPLY enjoy the times later when you don't have it so rough, and that is SUCH a blessing! Folks who never have to struggle don't ever seem to enjoy life as much as those who have had to knuckle down and fight through rough spots. Embrace the hard times in your early life, it makes the rest of life so much sweeter

 

[Cindiloohoo]

beach livin' :

Im on a long straight road it seems. With no shade trees in sight. I have one child who is 6, and have been trying to have another for the past 4 years. I finally broke down and talked to a doctor about our fertility issues. I have 3 months to get pregnant on medication, and if that doesnt work, we have to do really expensive procedures; which we know we cant afford, thence, we will not do them. My husband and I have allready talked about adoption, and we know that will be our next step if we fail at creating another child. Im stuck in a job that has no advancement opportunities, and half my paycheck goes to the government for all sorts of taxes. But at least I have a job. Im trying to convince my husband to relocate back home, but he is refusing. Im over weight, and starting to slide back into that rut along my long road. Thats my life right now

On a personal note...I know how you feel. Well almost, I didn't get the first one even

so I collect everyone else's children

I hope things work out for you on all fronts

Blessings often come when least expected so keep your chin up

 

[debilorrah]

Cindi, Robert will NEVER go back to his mom. Sara is Ken's daughter and she has guardianship. The ovarian donor shows up now and then high as a kite and tries to cause trouble.

 

[BHep]

One day at a time........... that is our motto here.

When the kids are old enough to understand and begging to go home, ask why, when etc... I always say...lets just take one day at a time.
You can't put a time on things like this.

 

[Cindiloohoo]

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Oh yeah...I always get the story mixed up

Sorry I keep thinking Sara is the mom...may as well be though

Thanks for the advice BHep. I'll try my best to remember the "one day at a time" motto when we're mid crisis here.

 

[HeatherLynn]

I am in the middle of chaos. I guess I am a quarter way up that mountain but there is an avalanche. I stay at home and take care of my 4 kids BUT I do so while living with my parents on their farm. My dad just retired and is dealing with memory issues and my mom is having a nervous breakdown because dad follows her everywhere. I am hiding in the chicken coop hoping no one more challenging than my 2 year old can find me.

My husband and I put up our house in town for sale and started rearranging our entire life right when things looked to be settling down. Then we had the last 2 kids and things became more unsettled then ever. I have no idea what we will be doing 6 months from now. No clue if we will still live here, move back into town, buy a different house, finally start building on the farm, or even move out of state. I just finished my accounting degree but while doing that the babies had come. So the plan was go back to work since our 2 were already in school and settled. The plan changed with the addition of the babies. Now I have no clue how I would go to work and still take care of the kids. We are both anti day care. I had even considered working over nights somewhere but then when would I sleep. So yea my stage of life is whichever is most chaotic.

Now my husbands employer sold their company and he will be working for Time Warner. Crossing fingers and toes on that one. He also just switched positions for one a bit more secure from being cut and switched shifts. So the chaos is a bit increased right now.

I know there is a plan out there for my life. I hope it has a good non exciting very settled ending. lol

 

[Cindiloohoo]

HeatherLynn....

That's all I got

I feel for you!!

 

[Fierlin1182]

Where am I in life?

Hmm... good question.

I'm at that stage where I've just recently figured out that however hard I may try to pretend it isn't true, the majority, if not all, of people in the world just won't like me.

I've also figured out that pretending isn't all it's cracked up to be. So I don't pretend any more. Better just to face up to the truth and start to deal with it, instead of running away from everything that goes wrong.

Oh, and I'm also at that stage where my mother is pressuring me to find a better paying job. Why haven't you handed your resume into fifty million little stores at the mall, ray?! Oh, I don't know. How about I've just finished with exams, and I'm still working about ten hours a week and want to enjoy my summer holidays?

Basically, I'm at that stage where I'm ready to embrace life full on, as well as all the hard times that it brings with it.

For "losers" like me, anyhow.

Oh, and I'm also at that stage where I'm starting to think about life and humankind. Like why things happen. I sometimes find myself wondering as to the point of it all - take one of these cycles. We drive to work, so we can design and make cars so we can drive to work. As soon as I get started thinking about these things, it just confuses me to death.

I have ridiculous career ambitions that I know will never come true unless I win the lottery or somehow manage to get a sponsor to go through university. What is the point of that anyway? We go to work, so we can get other people to work, who can design the things that we drive to get them to work... cripes, I'm started. SHHHH, shut up, brain.

And teachers, too. We go through school, qualify to become a teacher, so we can teach the next generation to become teachers. WOW. I know this is stupid thinking and we have to pass on knowledge through the generations, but sometimes I feel like it's just one massive cycle nobody's ever going to get out of.

I'll shut up now. I'm probably boring you all to death. Oh, wait a minute! Nobody will even be reading this because it ended up at the bottom of a page. BYC loves to do that to me.

Focker out.

(Sometimes I talk too much. What DID that dude inject into Focker anyhow? Sodium something? That was a blast to watch

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