➡I accidentally bought Balut eggs: 2 live ducks! Now a Chat Thread!

[ShrekDawg]

Oh gosh, it’s almost 2 am for you. Go to bed Kelsey!

Yeah, almost 2:30am now

I’ve been upstairs/in my room like 2 hours lol but been on phone and also chugged a lot of water so that too

 

[ShrekDawg]

Oh and then they’d all be super upset we messed up the curve ha although he didn’t usually share which students it was so that was good at least. They didn’t hate me personally lol

 

[R2elk]

Hah! Any photos of the Kingbirds spitting seeds? That would be a sight to behold.

Nope, never got that series taken.
Western Kingbird

 

[sdm111]

I thought of a lot of different responses to this, most of them kind of defensive or planning on saying how none of that was true at all but then I realized... I really don’t have much responsibility and it wasn’t entirely wrong. But that said I did make myself sound way worse in my own post and like I don’t do anything at all ever which is not entirely true. But that said, I do need to do more around here even if it’s not a real job. Obviously I need one of those too but I don’t even do my own laundry or vacuum or take the trash out or do the dishes or really anything.... which is definitely bad. We did have some chores when we were younger but really don’t know and my mother especially just does the laundry, I always tell her not to, but she does it anyway and tbh if she didn’t, I would have no clothes to wear. I kind of take advantage of that. BUT. That said, I HAVE been doing more lately. It doesn’t seem like it and I haven’t changed that much but the new diet for one. I’m actually eating healthy and cooking for myself when I never used to do that before, or at least rarely, and often ate out, usually Subway or Five Guys, wasting money and destroying my body at the same time. But now I’ve been really good about the healthy thing. And I’ve had way more energy since then. And another thing is I did for once take out the trash yesterday. And I cleaned my room today. Or at least most of it. And have been actually showering and brushing my teeth and hair much more regularly and even shaved the other day. And lots of other little stuff. And I know, that’s all stuff I should be doing regularly anyway/should have already been doing and it’s gross not to do and that doesn’t count as responsibility and I still need a real job and real responsibility and blah blah blah but it’s big for me because I wasn’t reliably doing it before and I’ve been meaning to clean my room/pick up the piles of clothes on the floor for a LONG time and never could until today. Granted, my motivation was only in case animal control had to come get the critter out of the closet. but still. At least it got done.

That said, I definitely do need a “real” job and whatever for rental purposes so I can actually rent an apartment because they usually won’t rent to someone without one or at least it’s waaaaayyyy harder with non traditional income and of course for the insurance purposes since I turn 26 next year and get be on my parents’ insurance anymore so need a job with one and of course so I can start saving way faster than I can currently, etc. Definitely lots of reasons for the real job. BUT. That said I also want to get certified and insured and get business cards and all that stuff and start getting more dog walking and pet sitting clients. As well as possibly fixing up our house/fencing in our yard a bit and boarding dogs here. You can make a lot of money from and there are people that make careers from it. It is possible and eventually some people even make way more than any real job. People are spending way more on pets now, especially in my area, and treat them like family, so all pet businesses, not just sitting and walking, are growing. Clothes, treats, food, accessories, etc., etc. so I think it’s definitely possible to make a career from it. But of course it’s also probably a lot more work than just getting a regular job but I would MUCH rather be working with dogs every day. Or even cats and horses and chickens and stuff. Though I don’t have any of those clients yet. That said, I also want to get certified as a professional dog trainer because I think that’s probably a much better/more viable career option. But then again not necessarily cause it’s a lot more overhead and liability than just sitting or walking so that cuts into profits. See? I have thought about and researched this haha

Which leads to the next point.

The effort thing.

It’s not entirely true.

I will say, I have noticed, I do seem to have much less motivation or work ethic or whatever and want to quit when it’s hard or whatever, like when I was reading all the tax stuff for the dog business, but I’m honestly not sure that’s laziness as much as it is just me getting overwhelmed by it all/thinking it’s too much and giving up. I think there’s a difference. But maybe not. Idk. I want to do a lot of stuff, I just sometimes get kind of overwhelmed by it. But yes, sometimes I don’t even try.

Either way, I am already aware of all of that. I’m already aware of most of this stuff. I know I have a problem.

I just need to work on fixing it.

Also I believe it’s partially living in this house and my parents mostly my mother enabling me. Because when I’m home alone, which is very rare but sometimes they go on a vacation or go somewhere together, I am much more active and cook and clean and do everything myself and don’t even sit down and exhaust myself I do so much because I never do anything and when I was away at college, which was only briefly, I did my own laundry and everything. Granted, my room was an absolute disaster, but I had way too much stuff for the space to begin with (mostly from my mother who gave me a bunch of stuff I didn’t want) and was also extremely depressed at the time, but I at least did do my own laundry and got my own food and stuff. Btw much better now. Still don’t do my laundry but no longer depressed at least that I’m aware of. But it is something because I’m fine and do tons when I’m not home. So I def need to move out.

But also, back to the effort thing, it’s not that I don’t want to put effort into anything. I just only want to put effort into things I care about. And most things I don’t care about. I have done TONS of research on all different kinds of animals, both care requirements and breeds and all that kind of stuff, and done tons of research into starting a pet business and the taxes and insurance and everything about that, I put tons of effort into the chickens and the garden as well as the cat and dog. They all eat way better than I’ve ever eaten and get the best care possible. I take care of all of the animals here basically exclusively and buy everything for them. If I didn’t, they would probably be neglected. I do all the work on the garden and it was my idea. As were the chickens. I have been very closely monitoring the baby chicks and trying to socialize them and stuff and almost obsessively picking poop out of the food tray and changing the water. Today I ran off a fox TWICE. The latest was around 8 right before dinner and I literally did a full on sprint across the entire yard yelling and screaming at the thing and could barely even stand or eat dinner after because my legs and arms were shaking so badly and my legs were in a lot of pain probably from the lactic acid. But I chased him off. I probably could have just left it alone since he was already across the yard by the time I got outside but I didn’t want to. I wanted to make sure he knew I would do anything to protect those chickens and really send him packing. Which he did. The damn thing was just casually/nonchalantly trotting along until I started closing in on him and then he really started running fast and disappeared into the woods. Which is what I wanted. Probably not really relevant, I know, but point being I NEVER run, I am not an athlete or anything, and he was already almost gone, but I put way extra effort into running him off because of the chickens and especially the little babies. The dogs I walk them even in the rain or cold even when FSIL says I don’t have to (unless it’s like a really bad storm or something and too dangerous or she cancels because of something like that) and I’ve taken them on several 2 or 3 mile walks when I can’t let them in the yard to play (like when they had just sprayed for ticks and mosquitos or when the tree people had the gate open to cut and chip trees) or want to tire them out way more than usual if they aren’t home or something. I even took one of them on that long route in like 24 degree weather and probably way colder windchill because I thought she needed the extra exercise. And took the other one on a regular short walk before that. I also didn’t even have a face mask and I don’t remember about gloves. I’m not saying this was a good thing, it was really stupid and dangerous, and I was exhausted/sick and felt like shit for days after but I did it for the dogs. Another dog so drive from their house and take to my house for whole afternoons so that I can take her on that long walk and make her fetch uphill till she drops in our yard. And also train her/do tricks, and make her jump on top of all sorts of stuff, like little rock walls along the way on the walks and training in a field with fetch and recalls and stuff and training at their house etc all to really tire her out cause she is very hyped and wound up all the time and super smart (their other one is super sweet but fine with just a brief walk). I don’t have to do any of this. I could just let them out to pee and poop and feed or play with them or just chill on the couch. But I actually want to engage and tire the dog out and do stuff with them. Of course nothing tires that dog out even 10+ mile trail runs and swimming but I want to at least try. So. My point with all of this rambling and stories is with the dogs I put WAY more effort in than necessary, to the point where I physically and mentally exhaust myself from doing too much since I’m not used to it. But I do it for the dogs because they need it. Same reason why I put so much effort into my own animals. I put effort into things I care about. I just don’t care about most things. There’s a difference between that and not caring about or wanting to put effort into anything imo. And when I was still in school or whenever I do projects or whatever, I always say overdid it and put way more effort in than I had to. I always did or tried to do my best. To the point that I actually sometimes didn’t even start for a while or would get stuck because I’d be a perfectionist and want to do it perfectly even when there wasn’t much time left to do it and that was a problem. Now, granted, I shouldn’t have procrastinated my work to the point it was the last night or last few days or occasionally day of, but I usually did but even then, even with the clock ticking rapidly, I STILL couldn’t do half assed work. It had to be done perfectly. I always usually give everything my all, like 110%, when I do it. The problem, I know, is I don’t always start. But once I do I am obsessive about doing it right. That also applies to room cleaning and everything else. I don’t want to do it wrong so don’t do it at all. When I’m cooking I always follow the directions to a T. Heck, when I’m in stores I even organize stuff usually. That’s their job, not mine, but I do it anyway. One time some seed packets on an end cap were all mixed up, I fixed them all and found out two of the shelves were actually empty. I fix and reorganize books and candy and food and shit. No normal person would do that. But I can’t stand shit being wrong. Of course that’s also mostly the OCD but still. I am an extremely hard worker when I want to be. I’m not just same lazy shit teenager that doesn’t give a shit about anything and just plays on the phone the entire time they’re working. I actually give a shit. Probably give too much of a shit. They’ll probably tell me to stop obsessing over/fixing that one thing and move on. Probably wouldn’t be fast enough. And I do want to work and do shit. I just haven’t yet. Idk why. And my parents have never actually made me get a job. Not that it’s their fault. But in a way I’m pretty sure they enable me way more than my brothers. They both had jobs pretty young and stuff and good ones now and went to really good schools and I never have. They talk about how I need to get one but they’ve never actually made me. And they always used to say we’d be grounded or they’ll take the car or whatever, all this shit, and they never actually do. There’s never any actual punishments or consequences. Not that I want any or that it’s their fault, I could easily get a job if I really wanted one, but I just don’t think it has helped me any. And also now that I’m so old I don’t think most places would hire me anyway. It looks weird that I haven’t had a job yet. And there are plenty of college and high school kids who will probably do it cheaper. So I probably couldn’t get one even if I wanted one. But I do know there’s an issue.

But sorry for the entire book.... I guess I did still have a lot to say after all.... I just start typing and can’t stop....

Oh and also I’ve been saving every bit of money I get and have a pretty good amount already. I’m trying to save 6 or 12 months rent while meanwhile my brother told me oh what do you need to do that for/what are you waiting for?, you have more money than I do, just move out, etc. my other brother and dad both thought my idea was a good idea though and told me not to listen to him hah but he’s had good internships and jobs and stuff and still has like almost nothing saved while I have quite a lot saved even in this little not real job because I’ve been saving everything. Birthday, graduation, and holiday money, paychecks, etc. now granted I do still do a bit of online shopping with the credit card which is bad and I do tend to spend cash, I can be slightly impulsive with both of those, which is bad, but I’ve been a lot better lately and most of the stuff I’ve bought lately has actually been necessary. The money in the savings account I put in and I never touch. So in some ways I think I am more responsible and/or mature than my brother and a lot of other people my age but then in other ways I’m definitely not. But I’m aware of all this.

Sorry again for the entire huge book

And I know most people probably won’t even read this because it’s not broken up but I tried to do it but then I typed more than I expected after and I don’t even know where to begin now. Sorry

it'll take me a while I'll need to keep coming back to read more. You also have to think about if you have not already establishing and building credit. Whatever you do big in your journey through life will most likely depend on a credit rating. That imo should have already been started and the longer you wait the longer it will take. Anyway like I said before I'm not saying this to be mean it's life and it's real

 

[Molpet]

Yeah, almost 2:30am now

I’ve been upstairs/in my room like 2 hours lol but been on phone and also chugged a lot of water so that too

If you keep doing the same thing you will get the same result

How many times did you have to get up during the morning to visit the bathroom?

I have read if you say 10x a day
" Every day, in every way, I am getting better"
It's positive reinforcement for inspiration

 

[casportpony]

Nope, never got that series taken.
Western Kingbird

Your pictures are always so good!

 

[debid]

Here it comes.
So far, it looks like we'll be spared the severe weather, just rain all day long. But look at Mississippi!

 

[Kiki]

Babies so he will have to wait for them to grow up.

Are you going to mess with them constantly so they like you?

 

[Kiki]

Can’t do that.

I know you won't, I just love saying it to you.

 

[Kiki]

Here it comes.
So far, it looks like we'll be spared the severe weather, just rain all day long. But look at Mississippi! View attachment 1769042

We are going to be seeing this tonight.