➡I accidentally bought Balut eggs: 2 live ducks! Now a Chat Thread!

[Kiki]

You aren't going to "be cured" (for lack of better phrasing) in just one day. Don't be so hard on yourself. You should allow yourself to be able to focus on the good stuff that you've done today. If you ONLY focus on all the stuff that makes you feel bad, all it is going to accomplish is making you feel never good enough. That is not healthy (mentally) and it leads to more not so healthy behaviors. It is GOOD to acknowledge the stuff that you need to work on. It is good to share here. It is a way to hold yourself accountable and that is a good thing. There is a lot of love, and it may at times be the not so fun Tough Love to be given, but people around here care enough to give it. So if you've done more today than you usually do, that's great! It is an accomplishment. Are you perfect? No. But do you have the ability to improve. Yes. Think of it as a challenge to maybe do something else, no matter how small. A little more each day. Just keep moving 1 step at a time.

 

[littleprairieheartsfarm]

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We’ve only ever used shavings I’m thinking wood chips out there though. I’d have a dirt floor to work with instead of concrete like the one we have the group in now.

 

[Kiki]

Thank you!! That was sweet you are right but idk, I guess it’s just that I’ve only done like 3 things, and then have been on the iPad the whole rest of the time. I still kind of wasted the day a bit. Especially the last few hours. I should have gotten all the stuff I wanted to do done sooner and then now I’m done doing stuff but still sitting here. And I guess I’m kinda thinking my room coulda been cleaned better instead of just putting one little thing of clothes in a drawer. Idk. I guess I am just a little disappointed in myself that I couldn’t avoid checking it this morning plus I guess I’m worried about disappointing Kiki but also my parents. Idk. Mentioned it to my dad and he focused on how I said I wasn't gonna use it this morning/after what you said last night instead of the good I did. I made the mistake of telling him basically what I said here about how I’m majorly addicted to it and wanted to work on it. That was clearly a mistake. And then I mentioned him only focusing on the negatives and not any of the good i also said i did and he goes what are you gonna cry? Which I wasn’t even close to crying but was just frustrated/mad/upset/whatever. He’s just a bully. So I think that might be part of it. Idk. Especially since it also confirms what I was thinking myself about how I failed in my goal. Idk. But ****. Now I actually am crying thinking about all this. I’m such a baby. Geez. The ironic thing is my mental health has actually been pretty good lately, been in a pretty good place and haven’t really thought anything bad like usual, despite doing nothing/being way lazy all the time but yet today I actually manage to accomplish something and I somehow feel WORSE and more depressed



Aw that sucks

Snap out of it...where is that emoji when I need it.
I can't respond right now, I will asap.

I will never be mad at you if you at least do a little bit each day.
You have to do something though...don't waste the whole day. Days go by really fast.

 

[Kiki]

Please don't use shavings it will cause respiratory issues with the dust and being so enclosed. I've been there I absolutely will not use shavings only wheat straw. For emergency brooders bedding I will use dirt and leaves, pine straw whatever a rake will pick up before shavings.
Oh yeah p.s. I don't like shavings







Nope

I hate shavings too.

 

[Kiki]

Yeah, I picked up and put away all the clothes in the picture. It was mostly all pajamas.

Great! I'll take it!

 

[Kiki]

Thanks

 

[sdm111]

We’ve only ever used shavings I’m thinking wood chips out there though. I’d have a dirt floor to work with instead of concrete like the one we have the group in now.

Sorry to hear, you're missing out on something wonderful.
Straw also wicks away water and dries out quick since it's hallow and waxy.
Not to be confused with hay that soaks up water and molds and rots.

 

[Kiki]

@Texas Kiki Your baby boy is all growed up. I saw SF Jr. breed one of his girls today. I'm going to have to start walking around the entire pond to see if they are laying yet!

You can almost hatch some more!

 

[Kiki]

We’ve only ever used shavings I’m thinking wood chips out there though. I’d have a dirt floor to work with instead of concrete like the one we have the group in now.

Wood chips, leaves, lawn clippings, sticks. Real deep litter girl!

 

[littleprairieheartsfarm]

Sorry to hear, you're missing out on something wonderful.
Straw also wicks away water and dries out quick since it's hallow and waxy.
Not to be confused with hay that soaks up water and molds and rots.

No one sells straw here that isn’t $15 a tiny “bale”. Yeah no I’m not spending that much on it.

Wood chips, leaves, lawn clippings, sticks. Real deep litter girl!

We have plenty of those things, especially leaves. I have enough leaves in the yard that I could fill 20 coops.