You know I'm praying for you often, dear Burt. Please don't hesitate to share with me how I can help. I think of the way I'd feel in your feathers, and I think you have a wonderful outlook and have a depth of character I wouldn't have right now...I'd be whiny and angry.
Make a list of the things you want to do while you feel good. Keep it in your pocket. Add to it. Prioritize it.
Get up in the middle of the night and go smell the dark. Breathe it in and let the stars and quiet guide you in what you have forgotten you dreamed of when you were younger.
Praying you'll feel good for a LONG time!