Animals know just what we need when we need it.So today didn't go as planned, I went to have the port put in and because my blood work wasn't great they decided against it at least until my platelet count was higher (I am not a Dr and have no idea how or why that determines whether or not to have a surgical procedure but it does) so for now I will continue having the infusions via an IV , just a small hump in the road. I won't lie, I know you all think I'm so tough and strong but I didn't take the news very well at all and came home and cried by myself sitting with the ducks at the pond. I wanted so badly to call my mom and tell her everything that was happening but we don't have a very functional relationship so I just vented to the ducks. The most amazing thing happened as I was sitting there with tears freezing down my face. Ravyn swam over to me and without fear sat right at the end of my foot. I was so shocked I didn't dare move and then a few moments later he climbed up into my lap nuzzled up and shut his eyes. I was FREAKING out!! You all know the struggles I have had with these ducks and now 1 of them is in my lap, wtheck is going on!!! I say there for probably an hour and then walked back up thinking our love fest was over. Nope. In tow right at my feet was Ravyn aka Ray since it's a boy..We came up and I was able to bend down and without fear this duck stepped right into my hands and let me pick him up!!! I can't make this up!! I'm still in shock and a state of confusion over this duck deciding I wasn't the enemy at all. He's still with me inside just laying here.... I am happier than I have been in a long time....