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I totally agree. Start a Fix Laura thread with my blessing. Discuss all that I should be doing that I haven't yet tried, question my authenticity and whether I am embellishing my posts, or if I am bitter, or the nerve I have in thinking that an ammo display in a bank is funny. Bond on the things that none of you have ever done, and be sure not to include any humor that could be offensive to others or they might just hijack your post and dissect your motives and character. Do that. Pretend you all just moved into a new town, way out in the middle of nowhere, and are alone and nervous, but optimistic. Pretend that you trustingly try to make friends with neighbors who act nice but then decide you're "a little too nice" and so start creating rumors about your due to their own insecurities. Now these neighbors of yours outright reject you for no reason that you can think of, and start hateful rumors about you. Now sit with that for a while, and then try to "talk to them about it" and work it out, and have them reject you again, saying they don't like outsiders coming into town and that being a single woman living in her own house is "not right". Then turn to a message board where you attempt to laugh off the pain and have some fun with it all, because what are you going to do instead, cry every day? Now pretend most people think your stories of their behavior is pretty laughable, and you start to feel better, knowing you aren't crazy, and these neighbors really are just being unfair.
Then factor in a bunch of others who chime in that "you must have done something to deserve it" or "how dare you mock your small town" (even though they've never stepped foot in said town or met said neighbors) or that you're just "looking for pity", even though all you've done is crack jokes and try to make light of it all. Now feel judged not once, but twice, and don't forget to know in your heart that you never did anything wrong to any of these people.
THEN, by all means, when you've walked in my shoes and experienced what I have and how I've been treated in a new town that I hoped and dreamed of having as my new "home town" when I bought my first house, which I never expected would be alone.... then start a Fix Laurajean thread, please. But leave me to my small town thread and my humor and to those who happen to appreciate it, which judging by the number of PM's I've received, is more than I even knew.
Fix away, but I refuse to stop laughing at life's absurdities.