thanks beem nearly a week still don't feel right waiting for my son to call he called nearly every day. My one ex friend I thought would be writing awful letters but seems she has got it not to bother me we had talked if she was to do anything to get this friendship ended I would not be like my father she did this long ago and was doing hang up calls and writing just awful letters I wanted my father to press charges but he didn't so then I told her if this was to happen again I WOULD PRESS CHARGES she had called my cell phone once and my home phone twice I have remained silent it is hard but it would do know good to have contact with her. I have know this girl for many years and it is because I said no to her going to my son's gave side all this isabout. Only Family was there, I told her all was to be family she seems to think when my mother was dying my father told her she was like family I DOUBT THAT she also lies.
I feel like I am in a nightmare one I can't awake from I think one time I get up in the morning and David will be calling and the house will still be and my father will be grumping as always, you never know how things are till they are ripped from you, you think all is well untill two cops are at your door and they can't tell you anything till you call a number and then your whoe world dies all the hope for my son is took from me, thing I had planned for him gone things we were to do when I came in every summer I came in around a fair that came into town he had won me a crocadile (crocgator) last time he won many stuffed toys or the kids across the street. but now it will not be we went to a chicnese buffet I just started to go twice with David and now do I want to go when I am in to this place? it is so quiet
I WANT ME SON BACK, I WANTED HIM TO LIVE WITH ME, We had plans to have it out here the 15 of april the night before he died he called wondering why I was not out theere sooner you know you feel it is your fault in times like this what you should of did sooner you don't know how I wish I was out there before this maybe the fire wouldn't of happened I was to leave my husband and maybe if I would of left him maybe my son would be alive I get up afew times a night maybe I would of got everyone out I woke up in a fire in 1980 it was not to bad but the fireman said if I didn't waker up when I did I would of.
You think there is a GOD tell me why he took my son he was the best kindess selfishless and helped all why would God want to take my son.
Rhayden