Well As ive posted before - I plan on going into the military.
Since the day I finally decided ive been exploring branches and exploring my family's limits as well.
Ive done alot of thinking, alot of talking, and alot of research. And Ive come to the conclusion I want to be a Marine. Now, Ive been working out, talking with a recruiter, and feel REALLY good about my decision.
But here is where I need my pick me up .
Since I first brought it up - I told my dad he is not allowed to visit the recruiters with me. My dad is the kind of guy who thinks he knows EVERYTHING. He gets all cocky and arrogant when talking to people. For example - I spent two and a half hours in the Marine recruiters office. Right near the end my dad walks in. While the Sgt. and I wrap things up I can hear him preening like a duck right out of the pond about this and that. I was SO embarrassed. He made me just SO MAD that he showed up and then started trying to correct the recruiters as well as "show off" .
But - I understand why he does it. Doesnt mean that just the sound of his voice doesnt set me off - because it does.
So - With all that in the front, I still have to have "the talk" with him about joining the Marines. My mom and I feel like he should be the one to sign my papers, but if he doesnt shape up then im going to ask my mom to. ( If things work out the way we want them to then id need to sign in January - which is before im 18 ) . So im really worried about him blowing up in my face about it ( like he does with everything else ) and me not being able to control my own temper.
Second part of my Pick Me up -
Since stating my want to join the Marines Ive had to deal with my younger, nearly anorexic sister telling me how SHE has always wanted to join.
1. She does not have the mental toughness for the military. She is very easy to manipulate and is easily affected by what other people say, especially about her body.
2. She has NEVER shown an interest before I made my decision to turn my life to protecting my country.
I just ignore her. But she has a new favorite game. Its called "Kill Kate from the inside out. " Ive never had a good relationship with my dad or sister - But i would do anything for them . I would protect my little sister with everything in me before I EVER let anyone hurt her. I would sacrifice my Life before I let someone take advantage of or harm my little sister.
But she doesnt see that. Here are a few of the things I hear almost everyday.
1." I cant wait till you move out of the house."
2. " I hope you die in Recruit training so i never have to see you again"
3. " I cant wait till you leave so we can get rid of your stupid ducks so I can finally get a dog" - ( Note - Ive always had to take care of ALL of her pets because she forgets to take care of them or refuses to, and for those of yall who know me, know I love my ducks and they are a HUGE part of my life.
4. " God, why are you so Ugly? The Marines are going to see you and kick you out just because of how ugly you are"
There are more, but most are too rude and hurtful to be written on this board. I have to deal with these two people on a daily basis since my dad doesnt have a job yet and my sister is out of school, just like me.
So I guess I could just use some encouragement. I know this is just a "phase" with my sister, and I know that my dad is just older and cares about my well being but it still hurts.
I was thinking today... and whats sad is the only real things i can remember from my childhood is my dad screaming in my face and spanking me till I couldnt stand and my sister siding with my friends who all turned on me. I cant remember much of my mom tucking me in, or hanging out with friends in the woods, or my mom reading me bed time stories. All I can remember are the bad things from elementary school .
Since the day I finally decided ive been exploring branches and exploring my family's limits as well.
Ive done alot of thinking, alot of talking, and alot of research. And Ive come to the conclusion I want to be a Marine. Now, Ive been working out, talking with a recruiter, and feel REALLY good about my decision.
But here is where I need my pick me up .
Since I first brought it up - I told my dad he is not allowed to visit the recruiters with me. My dad is the kind of guy who thinks he knows EVERYTHING. He gets all cocky and arrogant when talking to people. For example - I spent two and a half hours in the Marine recruiters office. Right near the end my dad walks in. While the Sgt. and I wrap things up I can hear him preening like a duck right out of the pond about this and that. I was SO embarrassed. He made me just SO MAD that he showed up and then started trying to correct the recruiters as well as "show off" .
But - I understand why he does it. Doesnt mean that just the sound of his voice doesnt set me off - because it does.
So - With all that in the front, I still have to have "the talk" with him about joining the Marines. My mom and I feel like he should be the one to sign my papers, but if he doesnt shape up then im going to ask my mom to. ( If things work out the way we want them to then id need to sign in January - which is before im 18 ) . So im really worried about him blowing up in my face about it ( like he does with everything else ) and me not being able to control my own temper.
Second part of my Pick Me up -
Since stating my want to join the Marines Ive had to deal with my younger, nearly anorexic sister telling me how SHE has always wanted to join.
1. She does not have the mental toughness for the military. She is very easy to manipulate and is easily affected by what other people say, especially about her body.
2. She has NEVER shown an interest before I made my decision to turn my life to protecting my country.
I just ignore her. But she has a new favorite game. Its called "Kill Kate from the inside out. " Ive never had a good relationship with my dad or sister - But i would do anything for them . I would protect my little sister with everything in me before I EVER let anyone hurt her. I would sacrifice my Life before I let someone take advantage of or harm my little sister.
But she doesnt see that. Here are a few of the things I hear almost everyday.
1." I cant wait till you move out of the house."
2. " I hope you die in Recruit training so i never have to see you again"
3. " I cant wait till you leave so we can get rid of your stupid ducks so I can finally get a dog" - ( Note - Ive always had to take care of ALL of her pets because she forgets to take care of them or refuses to, and for those of yall who know me, know I love my ducks and they are a HUGE part of my life.
4. " God, why are you so Ugly? The Marines are going to see you and kick you out just because of how ugly you are"
There are more, but most are too rude and hurtful to be written on this board. I have to deal with these two people on a daily basis since my dad doesnt have a job yet and my sister is out of school, just like me.
So I guess I could just use some encouragement. I know this is just a "phase" with my sister, and I know that my dad is just older and cares about my well being but it still hurts.
I was thinking today... and whats sad is the only real things i can remember from my childhood is my dad screaming in my face and spanking me till I couldnt stand and my sister siding with my friends who all turned on me. I cant remember much of my mom tucking me in, or hanging out with friends in the woods, or my mom reading me bed time stories. All I can remember are the bad things from elementary school .