I've lost some weight which is good because being home so much all I was doing was eating/snacking. Haven't been going out for a walk because people are not social distancing. Depend mostly on the senior bus from township. The dispatcher has decided in his infinite wisdom ONLY people who have no one to shop for them can go to the grocery store. He knows I have a brother, so I am NOT entitled.
My brother lives in another county. He is 69, legally blind in one eye, has had a five way bypass years ago, diabetes since college. He is just what the virus affects the most dangerously.
Food is not exciting to me, I've given up junk food - can't afford it.
The president hasn't sent me a stimulus check and I doubt he ever will. My sister and her adult niece living in NM got $ 150. each. They do not need it financially.
I don't feel I fit in - on BYC anymore after 10.5 years or more . I don't have any animals, can't afford them and me. I only get SS. which is not much because I used to just trim dogs till my hands decided to go numb at times and drop clippers(break them) didn't trust myself using a scissors on them either. I will be 73 in July, if I last that long.
Live in a "suburban community." No one else on BYC talks about having to pay someone to cut the grass, or someone to clean the gutters. I really feel isolated. Just realized the smoke detectors are very much passed the 10 year battery life . But they didn't go off anyway.
My son lives in a distant state - moved away years ago for his job. He is a very good person but, I refuse to use him as a ATM.
After years and years on a anti-depressant I was able to come off late last year. I was doing okay and then covid appeared on the scene. I probably have complained about all this on here earlier. But to be honest, I have a lot of anxiety and just don't remember. Please just skip over this and forgive me.
No, I will NOT just skip this, but you are
totally forgiven your self-doubts!
No birds at the moment? SO WHAT! Your experience and wisdom is needed, here. YOU are needed here!
You need to get back on your antidepressants for the duration of this Covid mess. If it helps, don't think of it as forever, just to get you back on your feet through and past this. It is NOT a defeat, just a setback. You've gotten past the depression before, with a little help. You can do it again ... partly because now you know that the medication therapy WORKS!
If you need the bus, TAKE IT! If you have to explain to the dispatcher about your brother's infirmities and distance, so be it ... tell her to send him the BUS!
Contact your church, slash that, contact ANY local church. Someone there will know of resources for you. Contact your local BSA/ Boy Scout Council, too. There are many, many bored youth out there who want and need to keep doing their "Daily Good Deed." You'll be surprised at how many will jump forward to help, if they are just asked. I have a feeling a lot of young men ... and now a few young women, as well, ... will earn their Eagle by doing what Scouts do best ... Helping! Give them the chance!
Get the batteries. Splurge if you need to, but get them. Your life is worth saving.
And go ahead and contact your son. He doesn't have to be an ATM, but he DOES need to know how you are doing. He may even have a few friends or know of others "back home" who would be willing to help you out.
And lastly, I have a question for you ...
We're supposed to clean out our gutters?
Prayers and Hugs ... stick with us, Friend!
