Depression?

[ChickenLady2014]

I used to paint, did ceramics, made quilts. All really good therapy.

I used to do photography & needlepoint. Maybe I need to dig the camera out & dust if off lol.

 

[Junochick]

So can relate Red, hubs doesn't understand depression so he hasn't a clue. He doesn't understand chronic pain either. He has no idea what it is like to hurt day in & day out. He's used to me being able to be superwoman, but I can't anymore. I get so frustrated with myself. I want to be physically like I was years ago before the back problems, but unfortunately I never will be again. I hate even admitting any of this stuff because I want to be tougher than that, feel like a big baby most days. This only makes the depression worse.

Being in constant pain can only be understood by someone else going through it themselves. Pain meds don't do much for me ,even taking high doses. Then insurance companies make it a problem they don't want to cover meds that work.

 

[ChickenLady2014]

I have been struggling with PTSD for years, Tried every medicine known, Hospitalized and several years of therapy. I found that if I sit and paint when I am having a really bad day helps me cope and spending time with my dogs and poultry. It doesn't have to be fancy it can even be stick figures it's just about the processing the thoughts. I have gotten so good that I sell my art work now all around the world. I do have days where I don't want to even get out of bed but I know my critters need me to take care of them and that gives me that push to keep going. Try it, It will help!

My birds are good for me too because I definitely have days I have no desire to get out of bed. Their care needs forces me to push on.

 

[ChickenLady2014]

Yes, we all struggle. Life can throw so much at you and you just have to take it. I am on the max dose for my antidepressant. The doctor i had at the time added Abilify but it didn't seem to help me. Now the insurance company wants me to take a different form i have to take three times a day. That is not going to work for me.

I'm sorry Capricorn, insurance companies can make such a mess to wade through. Or they just won't cover the meds you take or you have to jump through hoops(tiers) to be aloud to take a medicine that you have been taking for years grrrr......

 

[ChickenLady2014]

Being in constant pain can only be understood by someone else going through it themselves. Pain meds don't do much for me ,even taking high doses. Then insurance companies make it a problem they don't want to cover meds that work.

Yep, very sad

 

[ChickenLady2014]

I have had depression and anxiety since the 80s. I have tried many medications and the one i have been on works the best for me. The insurance company wants me to take cheaper pills that you take three times a day. I would never remember to do that. But so they can save money, i am supposed to suffer. I get really weird dreams if i miss one dose. I have been through so much the last few years: Moved back to FL, Dad died, taking care of Aunt and Mom with Alzheimer's, Aunt Died, i was just ready to die myself. Just sat on my rocking chair and watched TV, and slept a lot. Ate a lot. But i talked my husband into moving back to the country so now i can get myself out of my chair to work outside. It really makes me feel more calm living in the woods. The quiet, the calm and nature. I am sleeping less, lost a few pounds. Two days ago i fell off the porch, yesterday i wrecked my truck and today i fell down. But i get back up and carry on. Hope you all have a good day.

Sorry Capricorn, you have been getting hit from all sides. Hope things get better for you soon

 

[CapricornFarm]

The worst thing about suffering depression for me is when people do not understand it is a disease, and you can not control your symptoms just like other diseases. You can not say, well i don't want to be depressed so i am going to cheer up. That is like if you had chicken pox and you said i don't like these spots so they go away. But you can take steps to help you feel better about yourself. Maybe you don't want to go outside but you make yourself do it. The sunshine and fresh air may lift your spirits and you may actually feel a bit better. But if you stay in a dark room in the rocking chair, you are not helping yourself try to feel better. Personally, getting away from the city has been a huge step for me. I feel MUCH better and get outside every day.

 

[CapricornFarm]

Sorry Capricorn, you have been getting hit from all sides. Hope things get better for you soon

Yeah, i didn't hurt myself today by falling down or off the porch or getting in a car wreck! Hopefully i will find a truck soon and get on with my projects. Projects help me a lot. Hugs to you as well.

 

[ChickenLady2014]

The worst thing about suffering depression for me is when people do not understand it is a disease, and you can not control your symptoms just like other diseases. You can not say, well i don't want to be depressed so i am going to cheer up. That is like if you had chicken pox and you said i don't like these spots so they go away. But you can take steps to help you feel better about yourself. Maybe you don't want to go outside but you make yourself do it. The sunshine and fresh air may lift your spirits and you may actually feel a bit better. But if you stay in a dark room in the rocking chair, you are not helping yourself try to feel better. Personally, getting away from the city has been a huge step for me. I feel MUCH better and get outside every day.

I love it outside & I live in the country. I can't imagine living in a city. I would be miserable if I couldn't be outside. Red @rIrs roost I couldn't imagine living in NC with your temps & humidity. Just about killed me when we came to visit you guys.

 

[ChickenLady2014]

Yeah, i didn't hurt myself today by falling down or off the porch or getting in a car wreck! Hopefully i will find a truck soon and get on with my projects. Projects help me a lot. Hugs to you as well.

Don't be surprised if you get up stiff & sore tomorrow. Lots of times with accidents adrenalin keeps you from feeling pain the first day. Glad you weren't hurt & prayers that you fin a new truck soon.