Oh Cyn - I'm so sorry for your loss. Just came across this thread and I hurt for you. Having had my first loss this past week I know what it feels like. I never would have imagined, before getting chickens, that anyone could become so attached to them, much less I. But I was soooo wrong. They become so special and when it's one of our favorites it hurts all the more. Time will heal. I'll pray for peace for you and for a bunch of little Hawkeye roo boys to hatch.