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Yes, that does make sense! I sure wish that was the case, too, because then it would feel "right" that my dad is finding connectedness with other people in my life that I'm connected to.... but in talking to some people this morning, I did find out that yes, Dad has been questioning my friends about me, saying he wants to get to know me.... why doesn't he just talk to ME? That's what I don't understand. He has messaged some friends that declined his request (well, at least 1 friend that I talked to this morning).
I think my dad's intentions are coming from the right place, but dang... if you want to know something about me, just ask me. I'm an open book and would love to get to know my dad better THAT way, tell him about my life, make him part of what's going on so we could maybe someday develop the closeness he wishes he had. It would be nice.
Also, my dad has a history of social inappropriateness (both IRL and online), and that is a big part of this. I am gonna call him up this evening and just chit-chat with him and hopefully straighten this out, try to see where he's coming from. It's just how he was raised... his life hasn't been easy, and I always try to bear that in mind when dealing with him. A lot of it, I'm sure, is guilt he feels about putting my mother (his then-wife) out when she was 5 months pregnant with me (and my sister was only 2) because he had 2 other girlfriends and wanted time to "figure things out". Mom hopped in the car (they were living in Alabama at the time, where my dad was stationed in the Air Force) and drove, 5 months pregnant and with a 2-year-old little girl, all the way to California by herself in the summer of 1962 to come home to her family. My dad flew all over the world, came back to California when I was 18 months old (so I am told) to meet me, then we never saw him again until a week before my 22nd birthday.
He's in Oregon now and has a wife he adores and has a good life, and I'm so happy for him. Just... why is he waiting until NOW (nearly 50 years later) to be a parent??
So I'll talk to him. At least our relationship is good enough that I can talk to him in a good way and try to work this out. Because I do want to be able to say, "I love you, Daddy", and not feel "weird" about it, if that makes sense.
Makes perfect sense, I did not meet my natural parents until I was in my late 20's, and most of the time I am still not sure they want a relationship with myself, their grand child or their ggrand kids. At least your is making an attempt even if it may be misguided.
Anything is possible!
